Spirit...

Work was...taxing! lol Was busy but not crazy busy (& money certainly didn't show it!). But I had this one woman...that drove me FUCKEN INSANE!!!!! And Kelli & Manda just let me deal with her. Ugh! Manda walked by once & patted me on the shoulder. LMAO! Bitch! *smirks* She...or Kelli...SHOULD HAVE stepped in & saved me! ;-p But...noooooo!!! Gah. lol Whatever. They said I handled it well (at least outwardly anyway!) but by the time she finally left, I was a ball of raw nerves...shit. lol

After work, I came home for a few minutes & then went over to Manda's. We had "coffee"...*giggles*...while Dylan was in the shower. hahahahahaha She doesn't do it in front of the kid...but I'm sure she has an idea that Manda does it! ;-p Then we had homemade chili for dinner. Was YUM...especially since it's now in the 40s or so here. Gawd...I'm LOVING it!! :D Hope it stays for a while this time!!

Kat called about then. We talked about 45 minutes. Tomorrow marks 2 weeks since I've talked to her. I'd pretty much gotten over the hump of needing to hear her. Sheesh. *sighs* Anyway...I got a little bit more info than I'd gotten so far. And it made me realize something. I'm ANGRY because I can't do a god damned thing to help her! :-( And that's causing these reactions in me. :/ She told me that she'd tried several other people before resorting to Andy & what emotional state she was in at the time. What hit me the most is...she didn't try to contact me. And that hurts. But, anyway...it is what it is. :/ It's always been like that. It's strange...I feel better & worse since talking to her. Better cuz...she just makes that happen naturally. Worse cuz...I can't take care of her. I can't help. And the only time I can listen is when she lets me...

Then me & Manda were looking at some of the drawings Dan was posting on FB & ran across this wicked bunny girl...haha!! I stated that I'd like it better if it was a kitty & then Manda included "& she had vampire fangs". So...thus...the IDEA of vampire kitty being tattooed on ME was born!! *giggles* Then Manda & Dylan started putting together the HUGE xmas tree!! OMG! Thing is a monster! LOL But it's gonna be fucken gorgeous! ;-) Dan got home a bit after 9 & he was talking about his drawings & we then told him about vampire kitty! :D He was like...HELL YEAH!!! hahaha He's supposed to start working up a drawing. :D Told him Jan or Feb...when I get my tax refund. *grins* Dylan went to bed shortly after & I sorta finished up helping Manda with the tree. By the time she got the 1st row of lights on...it was time for me to go. Lights were always the thing that got to me about xmas & these had already started. *shrugs* I couldn't continue to sit there & let the thoughts invade...

Now I'm just waiting on sleep to invade. My plan for "peace"...starting tonight...didn't work so well!! Heh. *sighs* Maybe tomorrow night...