More on Resolutions...

Let's not take this wrong. Last night's convo started over an assumption & ended with the inability to bridge the distance a little more. I made this decision based on that convo. This is for me. You wanted the chance to help & yet...you don't take it when it's offered. A girl can only take SO much rejection. Plain & simple. I said to you over xmas...you can't change someone to fit what you want & eventually you just stop trying. That was a blatant pointed statement. It fits your situation. And it fits mine. You're right...we are quite the pair. Both damaged & no idea what to do about it. But like has been said from the beginning...you & I are in a parallel, in that we both want the same things. That's the sad part. Neither of us can get them from who we want them from.

I almost never have Yahoo on so that's irrelevant. FB is used multiple times a day. To see some action on yours...without an appearance on mine...is like...hmm...it only takes a moment to "like" or comment on something...that single moment is worth thousands in that it says..."she cared enough to pay attention & let me know she was there". It helps to bridge the distance left amidst the random texts.

Texts. I can take them or leave them. After all...they are only WORDS. It's sooooo easy to disbelieve them. Phone calls are different. I fall for the voice EVERY time. That's why I haven't been able to do phone calls. And I can't do them. Or, if so, few & far between. Voice is my weakness & it's something I need to avoid right now.

Don't take this & run with it. Don't get mad at me. Last night wasn't an argument but it was stressed & I don't want that. I simply want to not care that there's 3000 miles physically between us...& millions of miles emotionally between us. You're my best friend & one of the most important things in my life. So I add more distance in order to clear the emotions. I've always been here for you but you're always the one that's too busy or too restrained...