I got "closure". In a way. So I was finally relieved enough to relax enough to actually let my mind & body rest. Sara sort of...half-assed...kinda...agreed to a truce. You know, I was just moronic enough to BELIEVE she'd want a truce. *sighs heavily* I guess, in her own way, she did. The night before...she'd kind of attempted an apology. Problem is...she has apologized to me dozens of times over the course of this thing. 1st of all, when you apologize for something enough times, it simply doesn't have the magic healing properties that it's supposed to have! :/ Secondly, she's always used her apologies against me later...making the point that she's apologized...but I don't accept them from her. That's just it...I DO accept them!! Repeatedly! o.0 And then it happens again. And again. And again! *sighs* Right now, there is nothing in this world that I want MORE than for this...whatever it is...between us to just...CEASE!! I highly despise it...the nastiness, hatred, anger, biting sarcasm & all of the pain that it causes. I WANT IT TO END!! But not with a fucken apology!! :-( Anyway...*sighs*...we called a truce. I'm satisfied. I'm relieved. I can finally relax my nerves. She will eventually just completely disappear. Nothing I can do about that. And it's for the best anyway, I suppose. No sense in trying to hold on when we can't even speak to each other. All we can manage to do anymore is hurt each other. It's simply not worth it. I have zero desire to hate her. She already hates me...has for a long time...but that's whatever. I don't hate her...& that's a good thing for my soul.
Anyway...so work was busy. I started hopping at 9:15. Kelli got there at 10. We continued to hop. A little after 2, Mom stopped by for a few minutes. We actually got a bit of a breather at that point in time! It didn't last long though. Cindy dropped in around 4. She'd gone to buy books at this woman's house & was dropping them off. She hurt her knee yet again so you could tell she was in pain. :/ I was supposed to leave at 4:30 but I stayed til 5:15 cuz I was buried in a stack of books...lol.
And NOW...it is officially Sunday Eve!!! haha You know...the evening before Sunday? *giggles* I ❤ Sundays!!! :D
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