Alien Tongue...?!

You know...I really find it extremely dumbfounding...& more than a little disturbing...that the ONE person I've cared the most about in my entire existence...I absolutely cannot communicate with one iota! And it's not even as simple as a misunderstanding. No. It's not even as complicated as I'm speaking a foreign language. No! Cuz...with a foreign language, meaning I'm not speaking English...somebody somewhere would understand the language I'm speaking. With HER...it's more like...fuck...I dunno...I'm speaking in an ALIEN TONGUE!! A complete unknown! It's freaking bizarre...*sighs*

Of course, I've had the problem with people occasionally that they misunderstand what I'm trying to say...or I misunderstand them. That's common. The key word there being occasionally! I've never, in my entire life, known someone that I don't understand or that doesn't understand me AT ALL! :-( I think she & I had this issue straight from the beginning. I've always complained that she doesn't hear me. And I've had countless instances where she'll say something, it automatically means 100% something to me & she then later says that's not what she was saying. But...it was always just...a nuisance...more than anything else. I overlooked it. After all, the only time it was an issue was when we were fighting about something. :/ But we'd end up burying it & just moving on. That won't happen this time, of course. She is, after all...*gone*. But it still just blows my little pea brain at how MUCH we couldn't communicate. I don't understand it...not in the least!! :-(