What a FUCKEN DAY!!!!!!!

OMG.  I've NEVER been so happy to walk into my sauna apt in all my life!!  :-(

Still had no response from Sara as of this morning.  I KNEW she was pissed & ignoring me to punish me.  I was completely aware of it.  However, I also KNEW that she really had no right to be pissed at me for being incredulous about the stupid blog.  I was SHOCKED & CONCERNED.  I meant nothing harmful by it.  I just meant...*sighs*...she was setting herself up for failure by making THAT our means to communicate.  FML.  Now...if she'd gone ahead & created the blog & started an entry...& let us go back & forth a few times...I would've relaxed!!!  Set a precedent!  ALLOW it to actually WORK!!  But no.  She got all pissed cuz I was "insulting" her.  GEEZUS!  So I sent her a text this morning to tell Ben "Happy Birthday".  Even though I've not spoken to him in 6 months...I still think about him!!  It wasn't long til she laid into me & the whole thing spiraled way outta control within SECONDS!!!!  I've texted several times since then (cuz fuck me...that's just what I DO!!  I keep trying to explain myself in a way that I'll be understood!)  *sighs*  No response.  This may FINALLY be it.  I told her "fuck you"...several times.  I'm not proud of it.  But I no longer let people cut me & walk away without me biting back.  I just don't.  I've gotten cut WAY too many times!  Sick to death of bleeding!!  Anyway...I said all I could possibly say.  She has to be the one that actually puts aside her "ideas" of what I mean...& actually LISTEN to what I'm saying.  Whatever...

Then work was a complete BITCH after that!!  Cindy didn't come in til after 11.  She went & adopted a 5 yr old dog this morning & brought him in with her.  The order arrived soon after that.  Took me a while to even get back there to it cuz I was waiting on customers while she was playing with the dog.  Seriously?!  It was a MASSIVE order!!  I ended up with 5 flats.  A "typical" order is 1 MAYBE 2 flats!!  o.0  So I finally tote it all up front so I can finish processing it.  Yeah, well, couldn't do that cuz I was waiting on customers!!  OMG!!!!!!  While she was eating lunch, playing with the dog, checking her email, taking the dog out, roaming around in circles, processing books & ignoring customers.  I was ready to kill her.  I didn't NEED this after the drama with Sara this morning!!  My nerves were already severely RAW!!  Grr!!  So...instead of leaving at 4:30, I left at 5:15.  Ack.

When I finally left, I met Manda at Friendly's.  She was dropping Dylan off for work.  Gave her the books that'd come in for her.  We talked  for a bit.

Then came home finally.  I've not really done much except a couple of emails, FB, here...& more thinking.  *sighs*  UGH!!

I think it's time for a shower, dinner & a movie.  I'm off tomorrow & Thursday so I'm HEAVILY considering going to the beach tomorrow!!  I need THERAPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Packing & cleaning can wait til Thursday...*sighs*