Smoking...

I've been up since 2:30 am.  Ugh.  I'm so over this BS not sleeping crap!  :/  But...I will buy sleeping pills tonight at my monthly Wal-Mart trip...yay!  I've been out of them for over a week & have SO noticed the difference!  Bleh!!

Changes have already started implementing.  It's not easy.  Pretty much goes against everything I know but...everything that I already know doesn't work!  :-(

I haven't had a cigarette since March 11.  It still makes me crazy each & every day.  The only true thing keeping me from smoking is lack of money.  When I quit a couple of years ago, it was so fucken simple!!  I had a super strong incentive as well as a desire to quit.  I have neither of those this time & I'm truly amazed at the difference! o.0  So we got paid yesterday & my general raise made a pretty big difference all on it's own.  Next payday...will be even more...seeing that, as of today, I'm now the salaried manager!  Money is not the issue that it was so...there's no reason to quit!  I can't wait til I get dressed here in a few minutes so I can buy my 1st pack...*laughs*  I think I've lost my mind...drooling over the thought of having a cigarette finally...!!  ;-p