Start of a Really LONG Week!!

It has DEFINITELY been a Monday!  lol  That actually started on Sunday.  0.o

I made the superb MISTAKE of talking to Sara again.  *sighs*  Err...ok, well, actually...attempting to talk to her!!  Cuz we never really can communicate.  At all.  It turned into yet another fight.  There's not a damned thing I can say to her that she won't respond to with nastiness, biting sarcasm & just general misunderstanding...or even the stubbornness of just refusing to see a different POV!  GEEZ!!  She is not right all of the time, nor am I wrong all of the time!  FFS!!  I'm at the end of my rope.  Yeah, yeah...I KNOW I've said that a million times already but...FML...she'll never hear a word I say, nor will she ever give me any respect at all...so there's nothing left for me to try.  I have this HORRIBLE habit of getting that mushy "Oh, well, maybe she means it this time..." attitude when she backtracks & says she's sorry.  I fucken BELIEVE her...for like 30 seconds...til she blasts me yet again.  *sighs*  But I'm done doing that.  It'll never change.  I know that.  Nothing I can do to "fix" it.  It's not me...it's her.  She refuses to hear me or accept ANY explanation other than what she's got in her head!!  It's always me being the bitch & tormenting her.  It's always me fucking everything up.  It's always me...PERIOD.  And that's fine.  She'll think whatever she's gonna think.  Nothing I say will ever change that.  Her loss.  I know that I'm a decent person.  Somewhere deep down inside...I may even believe that, for the most part...lol.  But when someone like her overwhelms me...& tries to make it sound sooo convincing that I DO actually suck...well, ya know, it's hard to fight that sometimes.  :/  But...I know what all I've tried to get through to her.  I know how much I love her.  I know what I want from her.  I also know that absolutely none of it means a fuck!  She's made up her mind as to who I am.  I can't play this game anymore.  I can't let her continue to make me feel like I'm crazy.  I don't like it.  I don't enjoy it.  I know it's not true!  And THAT'S what I hafta hold onto now...NOT the fact that I'm in love with the person I thought she was...that person no longer exists!  Closing that book for good.  I'm still willing to be "someone she used to know" kinda "friend" but I doubt that'll even happen.  I don't hold those kinds of friends in very high regard--never have...never will.  If she can manage to stay away from the blaming, nastiness & sarcasm...I'm willing to be there.  But I seriously doubt she's gonna give any of that up at this point.  Whatever...

Today was chaos at work.  Or so it seemed.  Still having issues with Anthology.  Did some legwork to get us hooked up to Ingram.  The guy from Anthology should be calling me tomorrow morning to figure out the issue I'm having with the Options menu.  I can't access it without getting an error message.  If I can't access it, I can't do ANY of the basic foundation setup for the program!  lol  Whatever!  Eventually we'll get there.  *smirks*

Kelli commented to Cindy that she didn't want to work Thur-Sat (Cindy had court with Mike scheduled & then planned to take off for the weekend with him for their anniversary) so Cindy had decided she wouldn't take Fri-Mon off after all.  I told her to go ahead & take it...they never get any time together!  That I can handle the store.  No worries!  What that means for ME is...I'll not have a day off this week & I'll be working open to close Thur-Mon!  haha  Eek!  ;-p  BUT...I'm taking next Saturday off (to move) to make up for the no day off this week AND today through Wed, I'm leaving around 3-ish pm to make up for the extra hours I'll be putting in.  So...it'll all come in through the wash.  It's just gonna be a really LONG week!  Ack!  lol  And Kelli will come in Thur & Fri, partial hours anyway so that'll give me a bit of relief, at least.  She's scheduled a full day on Saturday.

I'm gonna start getting trash together in a bit to go out tonight.  Then shower & dinner.  Then maybe a little bit more packing.  Then I'll finally sit down & maybe watch a movie.  I just wanna fast-forward through time so that Anthology is up & running & I'm already moved!!  AHAHAHA!!  ;-p