LONG Day!

Work actually ended up being quite the easy day!  :D  THANK GAWD!!  hahaha  I'm so fed up with the crazy chaotic days lately that I dunno what to do!  lol  ;-)  It was a welcome relief!  :-)  Cindy is off tomorrow so she wrote out checks today.  I got a bonus!  ;-)  Wasn't expecting that...SWEET!  :-)  Around 11:30, I went to the bank to cash my checks, make the Store deposit & deposit Cindy's check.  Then to my other bank to make my deposit.  Then on the way back, I stopped & got lunch for me, Cindy & Maia.  When I got back to the store, Cindy was finishing up processing the order.  It'd come in just after I left.  After I ate, I printed stickers for the 2 batches of inventory items that I hadn't done yet.  I spent the rest of the afternoon working on "problem" stuff in inventory.  Books that either aren't in the system or were supposed to be but for whatever reason didn't get a sticker printed.  I left at 4:30.

Went to Wal-Mart.  My monthly trip (plus some house stuff...haha).  Then stopped at CVS.  Cokes are $.79 for a 2 Liter!  :D  Then I stopped by Dan's shop to give him some money for the tat.  He was busy in there!  I've never seen it that full before.  So, of course, he had to show his work off to everyone!  ;-)  I stopped by McDonald's to grab dinner cuz it was already 6 pm & I knew I didn't want to fight with dinner.  :/ Checked the mail on the way in.  I STILL haven't gotten the Sympathy card for Annie.  The one that has been mailed to everyone in the BPL group that Amber had mailed to me last week!  :/  Yikes.  Hopefully I'll get it tomorrow!  Got home & Mom was here!  Ugh.  I left my dinner in the car.  I dunno why.  I don't like her watching me eat.  Don't ask--no clue!  At 7 pm, she decides we need to go to Wal-Mart!  Argh.  My 2nd trip in a day!!  Albeit, it's a different Wal-Mart...but STILL Wal-Mart regardless!  LOL  :-p  She went home after we were done in there.  I grabbed Arby's & came home...at 8:30.  After eating, I ran around putting things up, more decorating, etc.  At 10:30 pm, I FINALLY got my bath!!  OMG.  So now it's 11:30 & I'm still awake...ack.  :/  Hopefully not for too much longer though...

Beginning of the Tat...

Woke up at 8:45 this morning.  Dan had pushed our appointment back to noon.  He'd gone out swimming this morning.  lol  I worked some more on putting the dining set together.  The table was easy.  The chairs...FML!  LOL!!!!  I finished the one this morning & started on the 2nd when it was time to go.

We didn't actually START til 12:45.  I was there til 4:30 & we're only half done.  But I couldn't take any more.  The parts on the top of my shoulder were brutal.  haha  So when this heals (couple weeks or so), I'll go back in for the finishing touches.  :-)  I've given him full creative control!  :D  It's soooo cool watching it come to life!  ;-)  I still can't explain the symbolism & what it means to me...I just know it spoke to me the instant I saw it.  ;-)  So here's what got done today:

By 4 pm, I was damn near falling asleep, due to the endorphins flooding my body!!  I didn't start reacting like that until the top part starting hurting so much.  Heh.  So needless to say, when I got home, I didn't do much!  Bud was here when I got here...but only for a moment.  I didn't even wanna eat...I was dragging so bad!  Unloaded the dishwasher...took a bath...I'm laying down now.  Gonna read some before I fall asleep, I think.

I'm hoping I sleep tonight.  The "fire" is already starting in my arm, since the bath.  I know when I got my last big one, it burned like a sonuvabitch ALL night & most of the next day!!  :/  Cross your fingers this one doesn't.  Hoping it won't since it was just mostly line work & not a whole LOT of fill in color!  Eep...haha.

Late Start...

Work yesterday was...well, I basically was just treading water all day.  lol  We were already at capacity as far as spare space for incoming books that needed to be processed.  People kept bringing in MORE!  My "plan" was to just process, process, process so that I could create some work space for Monday.  That didn't happen!  *snorts*  I mean, I was processing all damn day but I NEVER made any headway!  haha  I could clear a flat & then fill up 2 in its place!  *snorts*  Oh, well.  The life in a bookstore!  *smirks*  Lori did her own thing all day.  I had Savannah putting kids books & flats away all day.  I actually even stayed til 4:45 (45 minutes after closing)...STILL processing!  :-p

I got home & messed with FB a bit, ate & then fell asleep around 6:30 pm.  Slept til 8:30 pm.  Then I was up all night.  Watched 3 movies.  Finally fell asleep around 6 am...heh!

Woke up at 1 pm.  Mom had been calling & texting about 20 minutes before that.  *snorts*  She wanted to go get the dining set so I met her at Big Lots at 2:30 pm.  We brought that home & then went to Wal-Mart.  She wanted to get this little table...they call it a "writing desk" but the idea was for it to go in the living room on the big empty wall across from the futon.  lol  I got an electric can opener, cake pans & cake carrier, too.  And kitty food...haha.  We split up then.  I came home.  She was going to make some returns at Kohl's & Michael's then off to play Poker.

I'd woken up feeling like I'd been run over by a freaking truck & it really wasn't getting any better through the day.  By the time I got all the stuff from Wal-Mart unloaded, my head was just pounding!  Then I found out why.  Nixon!  ARGH!!  A week early.  *sighs*  So I made some dinner, ran the dishwasher & then started putting the little table together for the living room.  It's cute!  ;-)  Then I cleaned out the 2nd bedroom so Bud can continue tiling in there tomorrow.  Put it all into the 3rd bedroom (since it's now finished).  Rearranged my big bookcase in the living room a bit (had some more to add to it...lol).  Mom & I had a disagreement earlier about it.  She said I needed to stop bringing books home, I had too many, that I'll never read em.  Uh huh.  She just DOESN'T get it!!  Only "book people" do!  You can NEVER have too many books!!  And I do read...a little bit most every night.  Whatever.  She'll never get it...not gonna let it bug me...just ignore her.  *snickers*

I was supposed to also be putting the dining set together tonight but I'm just pooped!  :/  I'll try to get that done tomorrow afternoon...

Finally got my bath at 11:30 pm...LMAO!  Ugh.  o.0  Gonna read for a bit & hope that I get sleepy soon.  I'm meeting Dan at the shop at 11 am tomorrow to do my new INK!!!!!!!!  :D  I can't wait to see it in color!! :D

Annie & Boo will be here sometime Friday evening.  It's a 10 hour drive from NC.  She says she's leaving "early" but I dunno how early "early" is for her...lol.  At any rate, I'm planning on leaving work around 3 pm or so.  Then I'll be off Saturday (& Sunday & Monday...4th of July!)  ;-)  LONG weekend!!  WOOHOO!!!!!!

Wicked Crazy!!

Yesterday wasn't as bad as I was expecting actually.  *laughs*  Cindy had only pulled 3 of the 6 special orders out of the box.  They were on the "Waiting to be Picked Up shelf" so I was able to process them 1st.  She didn't touch anything else in the box.  AND...our entire work area was covered in books!  LOL  I spent the entire day processing & made a HUGE dent in her mess that she'd taken in but then...about 4:30...I started getting dumped on!  HAHAHA  So when I walked out of there at 5:30, our work area looked just like it did when I'd walked in that morning!  *snorts*

Today ended up being WICKED crazy/chaotic!  Just stayed busy non-stop, we kept getting dumped on over & over, the order came in & I processed that PLUS the magazine order!  We are BEYOND being stacked up at this point!  There is like ZERO space to even work in!  hahahaha  I ended up leaving at 5:15 pm but then had to go to Big Lots to pick up coffee cups, sugar & creamer cuz we're out of cups totally & very close to out on the other 2...& I need them for tomorrow.  Bleh...

At 5 pm, I realized that I will be by myself tomorrow!  o.0  Not EXACTLY but basically.  Might as well be anyway.  lol  Cindy has a jump tomorrow so she's off.  I'll have Lori & Savannah.  Lori doesn't work the front & when she tries...OMFG...just shoot me!  LMAO  Savannah does ok a lot of the time but really...I just don't have the patience at this point in the week to babysit her.  I'll send her off to do other stuff as much as possible tomorrow.  lol  I'll be on the front by MYSELF.  It'll actually be easier that way.  Sad, huh?  LOL

And...WOOHOO!!!!!!!  I just made plans with Dan to get another tattoo!!  :D  I dunno when exactly yet...we're still pinning down the details.  ;-)  He'd posted a picture of his latest creation a little while ago on FB & it just SPOKE to me!  Told him I HAD to have it!  :D  I've been trying for months to come up with something for him to do...but everything I think of has something to do with Sara.  Bleh.  One cuz of her is one too many as it is...ugh!

Talked to Annie on the phone tonight.  Ok...laughed & snorted with Annie on the phone tonight!  :-p  Whatever!!  hahaha  She & Boo are driving down here on July 1st.  YAY!!!!!!  I can't wait!!!!  :D

I Told Her So...

There was a discussion this morning in BPL (RE:  Tracie & Bill are still fighting their way through this thing with their girlfriend)...several things were said back & forth.  In my next to last reply, I recounted to her...You know, I've spent the last 2 1/2 years fighting with Sara SIMPLY because I still wanted to TALK to her, still wanted her a part of my life...regardless of where the actual relationship went!  It didn't matter that I still loved her.  It didn't matter if she wanted to be my gf or not.  ALL that mattered was she was my best friend & that's all I wanted to hold on to!  I still wanted her in my world because she was my friend & I didn't want to lose that.  But after this last disappearing act of hers...I realized something.  I no longer want to talk to her...  o.0

The moment I typed that out...it hit me.  I am totally done playing this game with her.  What I feel/want is irrelevant compared to knowing she will never be able to communicate.  And absolutely everything rides on that fact.  Finally coming to terms with it is what made me finally let go.  The battle to keep the friendship isn't worth the heartache.

The last part of the convo, Tracie seemed to really "catch on".  Amber & I were taking turns in saying almost the exact same things.  Yes, it's understandable, at this point, that she still wants to be her friend & talk to her.  But she's unsure of wanting a future relationship again.  Too much hurt was done between them in the last several days.  I told her...if she's not sure NOW what she wants...don't let it progress any farther just cuz she assumes she might want to try for a relationship later.  It's simply not worth it.  Her Jennifer sounds like the PERFECT mix of Sara & I.  She has Sara's wishy washiness & my insecurities.  I almost feel sorry for her...lol...Tracie, I mean!  :-p

Then...around 2 pm, I started getting texts from Cindy.  She was all in a panic cuz the order had come in & she still hadn't been able to get to it.  Just her & Sava there today.  But...she was trying to find & pull out the special orders to call people on.  However, she hadn't found the Invoice nor the stickers yet so NOTHING she was actually pulling out was getting checked in, processed, etc!  I asked her if she wanted me to come in & do it.  No, she said.  I asked if she wanted to leave it for me to do tomorrow.  She then went on this rant about not being able to do anything today, she's still sick, things were crazy & she was freaking out about the order.  So I told her to just leave it alone...I'd do it.  She kept on talking about the special orders.  It took me THREE times of telling her to STOP fucking with it & let me fix it tomorrow before she finally agreed.  Special orders can wait til tomorrow, too...unless someone shows up & asks for it today.  Otherwise, all she's going to end up doing is TOTALLY FUCKING IT UP!  *sighs*  I'm not even excited about going to work & finding out what all she's done to it at this point.  Ugh.

The funny thing here is this...not even a month ago, she & I had this "discussion" where I told her we needed to make sure the both of us were there on order days unless absolutely necessary.  I say that because she & I are the only ones in that damned store that can manage the task!!  Her response to me was a very sarcastic "I can handle it!!"  I didn't say this to her but I was initially making it a point to her BECAUSE I'm very much aware that she CAN'T fucken handle it!!!!  I can.  It does stress me out but I can do it.  It's extremely difficult to check in & process an order while running the front end & going in behind whoever else may be up there (Claire, Savannah & now Maia).  The 3 of them do not have any sort of handle on running the front end at all.

I'm just curious if today's events have made her realize why I say the things to her that I do...I doubt it but one can hope...*sighs*

I HATE People!!

I've been talking with this girl, Tammy, back & forth for a few days now off of Craigslist, that wanted to buy my bed.  Yesterday, she tried to jew me down on my price to $50!  Yeah...NOT HAPPENING!  So this morning she emails again that she has the full amount & wants to come by tonight to get it.  While driving to work, I called her & gave her directions to my house.

Cindy had gone to the Dr yesterday afternoon cuz this crud is still hanging on for her, too.  He told her it was an allergy infection basically--not cold or flu.  Her whole system is infected.  Her ears, too.  And she has this rash as well.  Since she got that flu in January & was on antibiotics...then sick again in March & put on different antibiotics...THEN her surgery last month & was on all kinds of crap...he wanted to give her something else again.  Too much of the same thing in such a short time frame can be bad.  So, AFTER her insurance co-pay, she paid $192 for 10 pills.  HOLY HELL!!  She's beyond pissed!  LOL  Let's just hope it works!!  Since she & I have been mirroring each other, suffering through this crap, Dr says I probably have the same thing but normal antibiotics would be fine for me.  Me...I'll stick with my Pseudo-ephedrine, Zyrtec & such, thank you very much!  lol

I left work at 4...in anticipation of getting home in time to get the bed taken apart before Tammy got here.  I got home & Bud was here.  Mom showed up at 5.  Then we all 3 took the bed apart.  It was down in 10 minutes.  haha  It took 3 freaking hours to put it up!!  :-p

At 6, Tammy emails me...when she's supposed to be HERE!  Uh huh.  Shithead.  She can't come get it after all cuz hubby thinks one of their 4 (+ 1 on the way) brats will get hurt on it somehow.  WTF?!  Whatever.  I fucken HATE people!!!!!!!!!!  So...the bed sits...in pieces...scattered around the living room.  FML.  *sighs*

Manda came over at 7.  Black Heart Loa came in today (not on sale til 6/28...HAHA) & she was coming to get her copy.  She left at 8.  I then ate finally & watched an episode of The Starter Wife.

I noticed around then, on FB, that David had refriended Katy.  I knew THEN what was coming!!  Sure enough, within a few minutes, he'd pulled us all into a group chat, to apologize for her actions, explain that she needed to pull away from just about everyone she knew for a while & may still need to stay at a distance (cuz she's fucken CERTIFIABLE!) & would we be willing to let her back in PLUS let her in on the signing of the card that is being sent around among us (actual snail-mail) for Annie.  Jen chimed in & said she didn't think Katy had any right to being in on the card at all.  As for letting her back into the group, she wasn't a fan of the idea but if everyone else was ok, she'd be ok. Amber spoke up & said a resounding NO.  She dropped us...fuck her.  I then put in my 2 cents.  I don't want anything to do with her ever again.  Nevermind that I SERIOUSLY doubt Katy would want to be the one to mail the card to ME.  Amber got it today...I'm the only one left...aside from Katy.  o.0  Tracie is the only one that hasn't said anything yet...but as far as numbers go, it's 3 against 1...he's outnumbered regardless.  Majority rules!

Speaking of Annie, she told me last night that she & Britt are coming "home" for a week or so to sort of recuperate some.  Her dad & brothers live down in South Florida.  She wants to meet up.  I told she could even stay here  a day or 2 & she was all for that!  :D  I dunno when yet exactly but it'll be the 1st week of July sometime.  It's been exactly 2 years since I've seen her & Brittany.  While the circumstances SUCK...I can't wait to see them!

After I dealt with the Katy thing...I started reading Black Heart Loa.  WOOHOO!  I'm about 1/4 of the way through it & LOVE it just as much as Black Dust Mambo!  haha  And this one picks up right where the 1st one left off.  ;-)  It's like an hour later in the story timeline.  :-)

Since Saturday...I've been in a really FUNKY mood!  Dunno what it is.  I'm not PMSing...that was the 1st of the month.  I dunno.  *sighs*  I'm just down...is the best way I can describe it.  I am melancholy...& uber sensitive to just about EVERYTHING!  Ugh...

Off tomorrow so maybe I can sleep in & just relax & get rid of some of this funk...bleh!!

Understand...

I don't understand you & you don't understand me--that's why it's better to just quit trying cuz it'll never be OK again...

Another Emotionally Twisted Day!

Woke up at 2 am, coughing my head off.  :/  I've already gone through 2 sets of cold meds with this thing & just REALLY don't wanna do another one.  Guess I need it anyway...cuz I was up til 7 am!  I texted Cindy at 6 am to let her know I needed a nap but I'd be at the store in time to leave for the funeral.  Ugh.

Dozed til 10 & got back up.  I don't think I actually went to sleep.  Got dressed & got to the store just before 12:30.  Felt like a zombie!  :/  Amanda decided not to go cuz their a/c is out & she was waiting for the repair man.  Kelli didn't go cuz she was hungover.  Lori decided to go with us, so Cindy drove her & Lori & I followed them.  We left Savannah & Claire in charge of the store instead of closing.  o.0  They ended up doing fine...but still...lol.

We got to the church at 1:30 pm & got inside.  The services actually started a little after 2.  I think he must've been cremated cuz they only had a pic of him up front...no casket.  I was fine through the beginning of it.  But...when Susan walked in with her parents & his parents & both girls...I started getting teary!  :-(  It was the oldest one that got to me.  She just completely didn't even look like herself & she's ONLY 6!  The baby started chattering & that made me tear up, too...watching & listening to her.  They were only 3 rows in front of us.  Susan's mom ended up taking the baby out of the service pretty quickly.  I absolutely DESPISE anyone seeing me cry, so I had to make a mental effort to look around the church, at all of the stained glass, then focused on watching all of the rituals they were going through...not actually listening to all of what they were saying.  Cindy & I were both pretty shocked at how close Episcopalian & Catholic is.  We weren't expecting that at all!  It was an hour long service.  I got restless about halfway through it.  The standing & sitting, the reading & singing, all of the other little ritualistic things...the Communion.  Yeah...anyway.  He was indeed dearly loved by MANY!  I knew he was a Professor of Theology but...just WOW!  Never knew just how accomplished he truly was!  Never even knew he had his Doctorate either.  He taught at 3 colleges.  I just kept thinking about the last time he came in the store with both girls.  He was always so quiet & reserved but he was well aware of how we cater to them.  And he always seemed to appreciate it...whereas Susan is just used to it.  :/  They'd just celebrated their 9th anniversary on June 9...5 days before he died.  So, so terribly tragic...

After the service, everyone gathered in the back where food, etc was set up.  There was a procession of ALL of these people to go by & hug her & say their peace.  This was when she started breaking down.  The moment she saw the 3 of us, she really lost it.  When I hugged her, I told her that Stacy & Amanda wanted me to pass along their love to her & the girls.  Just...sad...the whole thing...

We didn't stay to eat or anything.  We left after we got to see her, just about 3:45 pm.  Cindy & Lori headed back to the store.  I...went just a little ways down the street to go meet Jen at this tavern.  :-)  As soon as I walked in, she jumped up & hugged me.  We did nothing but giggle the 1st 10 minutes!  LMAO!!  It wasn't meant to be a romantic get together or even the implied impression of either of us being "on the prowl"...which...made me not as nervous!  :-)  But I was STILL nervous!  I always am with anybody new to me.  It wasn't long after I got there & we started eating that a super nasty thunderstorm popped up.  We just sat through it & kept talking.  :-)  We finally left at 7.  I got another hug as we parted.  She wants to hang out sometime.  We even talked about going to a local gay bar just cuz neither of us have ever been to one...HAHA!!   I dunno...we'll see.  lol

I got home at 8 & got tied up in FB for a while.  Then for about an hour or so, Manda & I were trying to decide if we wanted to go out for drinks.  I'm still super restless for some reason.  And so is she apparently.  We finally decided not to go out after all.  Which is better cuz...I've had a REALLY long day already.  And the way I'm feeling...I'm fighting my demons that want to email Sara.  I think I've talked myself out of it so far. Mainly cuz I think of the "restlessness" & she was a large part of the convo with Jen this evening.  She doesn't want to talk to me.  No point in me making a fool out of myself & trying.  It's going to be a bit of a battle for a while to come.  It always is when she pops in & then back out of my life like this!  *sighs*

Now...I'll finish watching Pillars of the Earth.  Then probably just go to bed.  I'm weary.  And restless.  And I dunno.  Just...weird...bleh!!  :-p

Surviving Long Distance...

YES!  I knew all of this!  That's what I kept telling her...& striving for!  Sheesh...

3 Steamy Secrets to Long Distance Relationships

June 16, 2011 at 5:00 am

By Natasha Jervis

Techniques for Spanning the Distance

Many of us have experienced the trials and tribulations of a long distance relationship. Some experiences can be quite grueling, while others seem to work out successfully. There are definitely methods of approach when trying to keep your “miles away” love affair alive. Many couples tend to give up after a certain period of time because of the “no see, no touch” factor, but there are ways to keep the spice alive in your relationship until your next rendezvous. Long distance relationships can last with effort, constant communication and expression. Take a look at these three tips for surviving a long distance duo and learn how to keep your love strong and honest as you go through this phase of your relationship.

Communication is Key
While most of us know that communication in relationships is imperative to keeping a long distance duo alive and healthy, many forget to use the many forms of technology we have at our fingertips. Think back to the time when couples in the war only had the means of telegraphs and written letters to communicate their heart-burning love for each other. Nowadays, we have cell phones, iPhones, Skype, Blackberrys, e-mail, instant messenger and more. So why are we lacking in the communication department? It just might be a lack of effort. When a couple is engaged in a long distance relationship scenario, these methods are truly important for the success of the relationship.

A simple morning e-mail can bring a smile to your loved one’s face, while a text late at night before bed can do wonders. Relationships have the ability to be even stronger these days as we have these advanced forms of communication. And folks, communication doesn’t just mean, “Oh the weather is hot over here and I am melting.”  Communication in relationships of any kind is much more than simple one liners and light talk. Express your feelings about one another when possible and when you are thinking of your partner, SAY IT. Try not to hold back, as little words like “I miss you” can keep your relationship strong. Talk about your days and what you’re up to so neither of you feel left out of the picture.

Hello Mr. Mailman!
Send something in the mail to your loved one and keep the long distance relationship flourishing. There is nothing like receiving live mail these days and it almost feels like an honor that someone would make such an effort to do so. It is extremely easy to send e-cards and quick email hello’s, but imagine the facial expression on your mate as they open a letter or package from you. One can only imagine it will be a rather glowing smile. This can win you bonus points within your relationship and it does show you are making an effort to keep it strong. Send a letter, a care package with goodies inside, or even some photos of your experiences and adventures.

Express Yourself, Respect Yourself
By expressing how you feel about one another you will build a bond that will overcome any miles in between. The more you know how you value each other and are happy to have each other within each other’s lives, the more you will succeed at this rather difficult heart wrenching scenario. There is beauty in expression and the power it can possess within a loving long distance relationship can go sky high. If you are shy, step out of your comfort zone every now and then and say or write it if it feels more comfortable. After all, you decided to keep the relationship going because you cared enough to in the first place. Respect your own feelings by expressing them to your partner across seas or cities and keep the love alive!

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Sick & Lazy...

Yesterday was the 1st day in over a week that I sorta almost felt a little human for a big part of the day.  Maybe I overdid it with working 9 hours & then 3 hours at book club but when I woke up this morning, right away, I knew it was gonna be a bad day.  I felt almost as bad as I did the 1st day I started getting sick, a week ago Tuesday!!  :-(  Ugh!  Nasty.  Hate it!  Ready for it to go away!!  Grrr!  I imagine...the cause would be...that ANOTHER wildfire started yesterday afternoon, SUPER CLOSE to the store & we were breathing that crap in all day.  :/  I didn't start feeling any better til around 7 pm tonight.  Sheesh...

I'd PLANNED on doing some cleaning today & stuff.  But no way with the way I was feeling so I spent the day watching Pillars of the Earth.  I had NO IDEA it was Medieval!!  I'm loving it!  I'm on episode 7 of 8 now.  Finish that tomorrow, I suppose.

In between watching that, this morning, Katy decided to be a cunt.  She'd had some sort of tiff with David.  She then went & took herself out of the BPL group & consequently deleted everyone from her friends list (David, Jen, Amber & Tracie).  WTF?!  So I called her on it!  Then she deleted me!  o.0  WHATEVER!!  The girls were quite upset about it & we were all in a conference chat immediately after it happened & have been the rest of the day!  haha  What started as CRAP...has turned into a MOST DELIGHTFUL DAY!!  We have had a freaking blast all damn day!  :D

And to wrap up the evening, Jen & I have just made plans to meet for dinner Saturday evening.  :D  I have to be in Daytona for Todd's funeral at 2 & that's a little over halfway between where she & I live.  ;-)  Figured...why not?!  I don't go that way very often...lol.

So now I'm going to read myself to sleep.  :-)  Apparently, they've cancelled Rob's surgery for tomorrow so Cindy will be there after all.  Maybe I won't have to stay til 7!  *crosses fingers*  I think they've decided the surgery won't help him.  :/  Which SUCKS.  They're just gonna fucken send him home to continue having worsening seizures til he dies...?!?!...OMG...  o.0

Incomplete...

"Today I begin to understand what love must be, if it exists.  When we are parted, we each feel the lack of the other half of ourselves.  We are incomplete like a book in two volumes of which the first has been lost.  That is what I imagine love to be:  incompleteness in absence."  Edmond & Jules de Goncourt


THIS is how I used to feel!  THIS is why it was so extremely important for me to have contact with her!  It was the 1st time I'd ever felt this about someone...bleh...but whatever...

Book Club Night!

Trying to save money where I can, I decided from now on, I'll just make whatever snack I'm taking to Book Club (whenever possible).  I usually take desserts.  But...because I figured this out so late, & didn't have all the equipment, Mom made a chocolate cake for me last night to take tonight.  :-)

So I toted the cake with me to work.  Cindy was mad cuz she couldn't have any...LOL!  We close at 5 & Book Club is at 6:30.  NO way I'm driving home & then coming back...that's pointless cuz I'd get here & just turn around to go back...lol.  So I worked for an extra hour after closing.  I STILL can't remember how to get to Karen's so I hafta follow Manda.  haha  She picked up Jenn & I waited in the parking lot of the store for her to pass & pulled out behind her.  ;-p  It's been a year or more since Jenn has been there.  She had some life issues to deal with for a long time there but we've missed her & glad she's back!  :-)  Ali didn't go tonight.  She had a business meeting to go to.  Karen was sad.  haha  Towards the end, Karen let her puppies out!  She has 3 Jack Russells & a Boxer.  Jasmine, the Boxer, was all over all of us...so were the Jacks but REALLY the Boxer....hahahaha!!!  She especially LOVED Manda!  ;-)  Too freaking CUTE!!!

Oh...& the cake...was a HIT...HAHAHAHA!!

Jasmine even got a lick of the icing!  ;-)

Cindy was scheduled off tomorrow & me on Friday but...at 4 pm, we changed that all around.  Rob is definitely going back into surgery on Friday, so Cindy is going back up to Jacksonville to sit with Kim all day.  So...I'm off tomorrow.  Which actually works out well cuz of Book Club tonight!  I didn't get home til 9:30!  Then had to put trash & 2 recycling bins out for tomorrow.  THEN a bath!  hahaha  And I'm STILL wired up so...it's good that I don't need to get up at 6:30 am!  ;-)

I missed a lot of the BPL convo today but...last night, Tracie & Bill broke up with their girlfriend.  :-(  It's really bizarre how much their situation mirrors what I went through with Sara & Ben!  So I can really, really empathize.  She's uber upset still.  And that's gonna take a long while to heal.  I feel so bad for her.  It truly sucks when a relationship ends like that...simply due to a refusal of communication!!  *sighs*

Speaking of Sara...like I said last weekend, we'd sorta been trying to talk.  Well, it didn't take long to know that nothing has changed & she refuses to hear anything I say.  I just don't understand.  She has her mind made up of the way things ARE/WERE...whatever.  And I cannot say anything to her in difference to her beliefs/ideas/feelings.  I can't get her to understand or accept that I didn't MEAN things the way she took them!  And there's just no fighting that.  *sighs*  I finally said to her on Sunday, the way I see it, we only have 3 choices here.  1)  She creates that damned blog like she'd suggested but then got pissed off at me about cuz I didn't trust her to follow through on it & she disappeared for 6 1/2 weeks.  Just DO the damned thing, see if we can allow it to work.  2)  Completely start over like we're strangers & try to get to know each other all over again.  We'd come to this conclusion once before but neither one of us could let go of the past hurts, accusations or assumptions so it never even went anywhere.  OR...3)  She just disappear & leave me the fuck alone FOREVER.  Granted, I've gotten a helluva lot better at recovering from her disappearing in the last couple of years.  I don't sob for weeks on end anymore!  But...even if she were to completely disappear from my life, I imagine it'll be YEARS before I truly get her out of my system.  I still love her...regardless of everything.  I still miss her.  That's not something that's just going to go away because she's not in my life.

Apparently...she's chosen #3...cuz I haven't heard from her in 3 days now.  I'm sad, disappointed & relieved...all at the same time, about that.  I know there's no possible way to communicate with her anymore so it's pointless to go through the heartache of trying...BUT...there's still that part of me that...hoped.  :/  Bleh. Anyway.  It is what it is.  I told her SHE needed to make the choice of what she wanted to do & she wanted to know why it was all on her...cuz...no matter what...I NEVER have a choice in the matter!  EVER!!  She is ALWAYS the one that gets pissed off/hurt, deletes/blocks me & disappears.  Every single time!!  And I'm just left here...with zero recourse.  I can message her til my hands fall off...she simply doesn't respond.  I can't go into battle with that anymore.  I just can't.  I don't have the energy for it anymore.  :/  So...she made her choice...obviously.  Now I pick up the pieces once again & move forward...

Another Death...

Deaths always come in 3s, right?  Bleh.  Well, I got my 2nd one in my immediate world today.  :/

About a month & a half ago, one of our good customers, Susan...her hubby, Todd, had a stroke & a heart attack simultaneously.  He's in his mid-30s!!!  :-(  They never could wake him from the coma afterwards but all of his vitals were still strong.  He stayed in ICU until last Saturday, when they put him in Hospice.  He died this afternoon at 12:30.  :-(  We all feel so bad for her!  They have 2 babies!  Anne Marie is 6 years old & Sophia is just about a year & a half old.  Soo tragic!  Susan's parents came in the store this afternoon & told us.

Cindy wants to close at 1 pm on Saturday so that she & I can go to the funeral to represent the store to the family.  Kelli & Amanda are going to go, too...separately from us but we'll all sit together as a unit.

I just simply CANNOT imagine...*sighs*

Anyway...so it frightens me a little.  Deaths generally come in 3s.  The only other person I know in "peril" is Rob.  He's supposed to be going back into surgery Friday.  Eep.  :/  Unless it's another shocker like Chris.  *sighs*  Ugh.

Insecurities...

There's quite the thread going on in BPL today.  Tracie & Bill are having issues with their gf's insecurities.  I got in on the tail-end of it cuz I was at work...but reading through the comments...I was like...WOW!!  SO much of it sounded just like a "broken record" to me!  And...I totally sympathized with the gf!  However, it made me think.  While being the 3rd is certainly a very HARD spot to be in...I got a different perspective of the other 2.  A different perspective...out of the fire itself.  It makes a difference...

Anyway...just thinking.  *smiles*  I LOVE LOVE LOVE this group!!  I'm learning so much!!  lol  NOT that I'll ever find myself in a poly relationship (or ANY relationship) again or anything...but knowledge is freaking AWESOME!  Too bad it came too late...bleh...

Anyhoo...work was work.  Just me & Claire.  It was cool.  Maia had texted me at like 1:30 am.  She'd just gotten home from Philly & wanted to know if it was ok if she skipped today.  I said sure.  And, luckily, I was right.  The day was fine with just the 2 of us.  Cindy texted me a lot of the day, filling me in on Rob's details.  He came through both surgeries fine...just not as well as they'd hoped.  He'll be in ICU all week & then go back into more surgeries on Friday.

Some T-Mobile salesmen came in the store today.  The one guy talked me into the Home Internet through them.  It's $28 cheaper than Bright House.  I'll give it a go anyway.  If it sucks, I'll cancel it & just stick to BH.  ;-p

Effed Up Weekend!

Friday was pretty much a wash.  Anything decent was overshadowed by the emails from Sara.  And the consequent being left "hanging".  She'd messaged that she'd gotten busy at work but she was writing a reply then.  That was at 6:49 pm.  Nothing else until 1:11 am this morning, pretty much saying she quit trying.  You know...just fucken shoot me in the head, please?!  ARGH!!  WHY do I fucken do this to myself?!  o.0  Later I got the full reasons behind why she didn't respond...& that was OK!  It's the "I don't know what to say" BS that pisses me off every time.  *sighs*  Whatever.

I got my Florida Driver's License in the mail.  :-)  I still need to call & find out what was up with that report though...ugh...

Saturday started out highly emotional about Chris.  I ended the day with Mom bringing in a new addition for the living room.  A 6' tall wooden giraffe!!  AHAHA!!  He's adorable!  ;-)  Then Bud came over & worked some.  Mom had made a comment about dinner.  I said something about not having really eaten since Monday night, being sick & all.  So we had to then get up & go to the store to get fixings to make her homemade veggie soup.  The ONLY soup I'll eat just about!  lol  ;-p  Bud left to go play poker.  She & I had soup & cornbread for dinner.  Got my bathroom completely finished!  Ok, not COMPLETELY...still need to change out the toilet paper holder.  *snorts*  But that's not a biggie.  ;-p

Went up to the store this morning.  Worked on inputting the inventory into Anthology for 4 hrs.  Got a text from Annie, regarding the funeral services.  :/  More emails from Sara.  Got home & Bud was here.  There was an issue with the A/C!  OH NOESSSSS!!!  But it seems to be correcting itself so far...(yay!!)

Cindy won't be there tomorrow.  She is going to go sit with her sister, Kim, at the hospital.  Kim's boyfriend, Rob, has been having seizures & tomorrow they're doing the 1st step of brain surgery on him.  There is a HIGH chance he might not come out of it.  So Cindy has to be there...just in case.  Eek.  :/  I will have Claire & Maia so it should be ok.  Both Kelli & Savannah have texted, asking if I need them.  lol

Now it's time to wind down for the night.  Bath...then finish reading Black Dust Mambo.  I've only got 5 chapters to go!  :-)  I've REALLY enjoyed it!!

Roll On, 18 Wheeler...

Within a few short minutes of waking up this morning, I found out on FB...that Chris was in an accident yesterday evening.  An accident he didn't come out of.  Chris was a long-haul trucker for many years.  It was always a "possibility"...but you still don't expect it to happen.  :/  Stunned is putting it mildly.  It's almost surreal.  I JUST talked to him last week!  :/

No less than 5 minutes after I'd seen the news, Lee called me.  She'd just seen it, too.  I then tried calling Annie--left a voicemail.  She called me back a few minutes later.  To say we had a conversation is just...wishing.  She isn't coherent much at all.  And my heart broke into a million pieces for her.  She only talked about Boo (daughter, Brittney, 11 years old)...when I could understand her at all.  :/

Now I can't quit crying.  He pissed me off to high Heavens like men can do so easily...but...just...OMG.  :-(  I keep looking at this pic of the 3 of us from SL...

You just NEVER KNOW!!  Anything can happen to anybody at anytime!  I guess, because I'm getting older now, more aware of my world...this is affecting me more than it would've in the past.  From now on, I will take every opportunity I'm given to TELL those that I care about...that I care about them.  You just never know when something you say to someone is the last thing you'll ever get to tell them...*cries*

Careful What You Wish For...

I made the comment that Sara needed to stop stalking my blog & just talk to me directly.  Be careful what you wish for!!  She started emailing me this morning.  *sighs*  And NOW, I'm right smack dab in the middle of trying to get her to understand that MOST of whatever hurt her/pissed her off...was not ME!  It was what she took from what I said & ran with it, making it end up not being anything close to what I originally said!  I will never convince her of this, I know that.  But I tried anyway.  Now I have a throbbing headache & I'm tense & uptight &...just...ughhhhh!!!  I fucken HATE this...

Sickness Everywhere!

Well, Lori is sick, too!  So is Amanda.  Kelli, me, Cindy.  Lori & Cindy don't generally have the allergies like Manda, Kelli & I...so we're kinda wondering if it's not the smoke from the 2 wildfires that have been burning/smoldering for the last month.  :/  Had a customer come in today that works at Walgreens Pharmacy & she said they've seen a HUGE influx of people picking up stuff for allergies/sinuses since the fires started.  Dunno...

Karen came in around 1 pm & we worked on Anthology for a while.  At least, til I was so miserable I couldn't think straight anymore.  lol  I left at 3:15 pm.

Got home & Mom & Bud were here.  All I wanted to do was sleep!  *sighs*  I did actually just pass out for a few minutes.  Not that I actually went to sleep but I just couldn't stand up any longer.  This working while being sick is for the birds!  *snorts*

Got up just as they were getting ready to leave at 6:15.  Watched a movie, took a bath...I'll read til the meds kick in.  ;-p

Update...

Kelli just called.  As soon as I answered, she says, "OMG!  You sound like shit!"  AHAHAHAHA!!  Thanks for the confirmation!!  ;-p  *smirks*  So, yeah, she's got the sinus pressure & headache...NOT the endless snot, coughing, congestion, fever/chills that Cindy & I have!  Lucky bitch!  lol  Anyway...so she's gonna open & I'm just gonna show up...whenever I get there.  ;-)  Watch...I'll wake up at 6:30...LMAO!

Sick, Sick, SICK!!

Cindy & I are BOTH sick!  How awesome.  o.0  She's off tomorrow.  I ended up leaving at 2:45 pm.  I'll have Kelli with me tomorrow.  According to Sava, she's sick, too!  But I haven't seen her to know if it's like what Cindy & I have.  :/

I let Cindy do all of the counter work today.  She checked in the order by herself, too.  I was trying to input the ISBNs that Karen scanned yesterday but the majority of them aren't coming up...ANYWHERE!  So, like, I had no idea what they were (except Serendipity books cuz that's the section she's in)...Anthology wouldn't pull them...neither would Amazon or Ingram.  So we had to backtrack a little today & she went back & got me full info so that I can at least create a manual entry.  Bleh.  lol

Blog got stalked AGAIN today!  Ugh.  It's CRAZY how just knowing she's reading my blog makes my spine bristle & brings back EVERY OUNCE of misery, trepidation, fear, anger & general uneasiness!!  *sighs*  Soo...the next free moment I have, I'll create another blog elsewhere...so that she doesn't have access to me.  It's the only choice I have to keep her from being able to fuck with my life!!  Anyone who wants to continue reading me, can message me & I'll send them the new link...

Getting Sick...

All day yesterday, my throat was kinda scratchy & stuff.  Then about 9 pm, I started  sneezing my head off!  You know what happens to your head when you sneeze a lot?  Yeah, well, I thought it was gonna split open  & I had snot everywhere!  UGH!  Couldn't breathe, etc.  Was up every hour or so, just achy & head pounding.  Woke up this morning & it's almost full-blown.  I've felt like total crap all day!  :/  But...I got drugs after work & am going to dope up soon.  Though...I have to stay awake til at least 9:30 pm cuz Mom is dropping by after her poker game.  *sighs*  She wants to see what I did with the living room yesterday & drop off laundry.  lol

Karen & I worked on inventory today.  I simply cannot concentrate on that & wait on customers, too.  I was getting so pissed off!  LOL  Not at customers...at Cindy.  She was back there at her desk like nothing was going on.  Seriously?!  So I told her she's going to have to figure shit out cuz I'm going to start doing this at night so I can actually get shit accomplished!  Nobody is there with her tomorrow so I have no choice but to go in on my normal time but just...UGH!

Apparently, Sara is stalking my blog again.  Guess school is out & she's bored.  Whatever.  She should TALK to me if she's sooo fucken interested!  But I won't kiss her ass so she wouldn't attempt that.  She fucked this up by ASSUMING & refusing to talk/listen to me.  She did that once before & it damn near killed me.  I will not forgive her for doing it to me a 2nd time.  End of story.  But she needs to fucken get off my page...if she can't talk to me directly...not that I have any clue of what I'd say to her...

It just irks me to no end that she can totally block me from everything AS IF I WAS THE ONE IN THE WRONG...but she can read my blog anytime she feels like it...unless I totally uproot myself & change everything I've done in the last 2 1/2 years...just to avoid her.  That's not fair to me.  FUCK THAT.

Productive Monday...

Was off today.  Slept til 9:30 am.  lol  When I got awake, I started working on the living room.  Put the mattress cover & sheet on the futon & then moved it against the wall.  Draped the throw over it & added the pillows.  Brought out the papasan chair, coffee table & end table.  Then the floor lamp & rug.  Then I got down to the business of putting the bookcase together.  Thought I had it all done except for adding the shelves & realized one of the top sides was backwards!  ARGH!  Had to undo that side & fix it.  lol  Luckily it wasn't all that difficult.  ;-)  I could just see me having to take it COMPLETELY apart!  *snorts*  I then put the shelves in & unpacked the remaining 2 boxes of books.  This was most of the big items.  Still have some accessorizing to do!  ;-)

After that, I made dinner, watched a movie, had some laughs with a few of the Bi Poly peeps (so much fun that I ended up having to call Lee...ahaha!!)  *grins*  Then a bath...*laughs*.  Now I'm just gonna read til I fall asleep.  ;-)  It's been a really good day.  :-)

Weekend Catch Up!

Cindy & I didn't really "resolve" our issue face-to-face.  It was all via text over a 2-3 day period.  lol  But I've stepped back, stopped pampering her...just letting her do it all.  She will be responsible for everything regarding the store all next week, too.  I will be concentrating on inventory!  Karen & I spent some of Friday test scanning, creating entries in Anthology, me on the phone with Tom 3 times because certain aspects of the system weren't working properly.  He was remotely in our system even after I left, trying to get it to print barcodes like it's supposed to!  I've come to the conclusion...that's he's a complete moron though!  Wow.  He doesn't belong anywhere near the Tech Support department!  o.0

Saturday I focused on processing & helping customers.  I'm still not really back to my "normal" of talking & interacting with Cindy.  I feel undermined, belittled & taken advantage of still.  Maybe once we get Anthology up & running, she will have had to handle her entire business ALONE long enough to realize her mistake.

Tuesday, Karen & I will really jump into doing inventory.  Which means...most of our time spent at the store will be at night, after it's closed!  Though Cindy doesn't want us there any later than midnight.  I dunno.  I don't think we'll do full 8 hour shifts...but who knows?  Take it day by day...

Bud has my living room & dining area done.  I went to Target last night & got a large bookcase.  I'm going to start arranging what I can of my furniture & accessories for the living room tomorrow.  ;-)  Planned on doing that today but...I got sidetracked!  haha  ;-p

I didn't get up today til 12:15 pm!  HA!  ;-)  Cleaned kitty litter & swept my room, cleaned my bathroom.  Bud got here about 2:30 pm & started working on the 2nd bathroom (taking the toilet up & repairing that, etc).  Around 4, I stopped what I was doing & sat outside, on the phone, with Lee.  For hours!  :D  Of course, she made me cry within a minute of getting on the phone with her!  :/  She had yet another surgery on Friday. This is the 3rd in the last 2 1/2 years.  Cancer.  This time...she didn't tell me about it.  And that's why I cried.  Because of her reasons for not telling me.  :/  She's getting to the point of not wanting to put me through the worry part of it.  She didn't even tell Kayla this time either.  Her own daughter.  So...I said to her...what if...the WORST had happened...& we'd lost her.  I wouldn't have had ANY clue!!  lol...apparently Kayla said almost the EXACT same thing to her!  ;-p  I made her promise...if there's a next time...she TELLS me...regardless!  Ugh.  *sighs*  DUH...I get upset & worry when she tells me it has come back...& I stay worried til she gets it taken care of!  Sheesh.  That's natural!  :-(  But I'd rather know than NOT to.  Anyway, after that...we had a pretty deep & daunting convo.  With what Steve put her through a few months ago, the Cancer coming back & all...she's changing.  Her world is evolving.  She's taking a closer look at her life & the people in it.  She's been "out" to her circle of friends for several months now.  She told me today...she's also "out" to most of her family...& most recently, to Kayla!  :-)  But Kayla surprised her.  haha  Said she already knew!  And she only knew because of me!  LMAO!  Kayla told her she knew there HAD to be something "more than just friends" between us.  *snorts & laughs*  I kept telling her she wasn't as stealth as she thought she was...AHAHAHA!!  I've told her that for 4 years!  *smirks*  We talked a lot about this Bi-Poly group I'm in on FB, what all I've been learning...& realizing about myself.  We talked about her emotional/psychological fallout from the Steve incident.  Before we hung up, she (somewhat jokingly) asked me to come to Canada & just marry her already so that we're both finally happy.  *chuckles*  I told her I'd try to come visit sometime this summer instead.  ;-)

I remember, 4 years ago, a time when I wanted (so much) for her to want JUST ME.  While, at the same time, I was really mostly ok with not being the ONLY one...as long as I was her Primary.  BUT...I also did NOT want to let go of Sara & Ben.  I was very achingly aware that I was simply a diversion for them  & meant nothing (not REALLY--not anything special anyway)...but I still wanted them in my life...with her.  It's all so very complicated & convoluted!  *laughs*  But...*sighs*...I cannot even describe what I felt when Lee said today..."I want to be selfish & be someone's only finally & have them as my only...finally.  To the point where absolutely no one else matters!  And I want that to be you..."

I cannot even begin to tell you how disturbing & difficult it was to even entertain the idea of being someone's...ANYONE'S...Only!!  It's kind of frightening actually.  Poly was never a part of my ideal relationship speculation.  It was something I was introduced to, did a lot of reading, learning & soul searching to even get to the point of considering.  I evolved into it.  At this point, I'm not sure that I'd ever believe someone would EVER be monogamous with me...or me with them either.  o.0  But I'm getting ahead of myself here.  Lee & I aren't in a relationship.  And unless she's REALLY going to stay in this particular frame of mind, it's pretty pointless to stress over it just yet anyway.  ;-)

It is utterly AMAZING how we change, over time, isn't it?!  :-)  How other people, experiences, feelings, emotions can change us?  Hmm...

The Story of Us - Taylor Swift

Even though it's well BEYOND over...this still screams to me...ugh...lol

PMS-ing!!

Yesterday morning, as I'm finishing up the order, Cindy tells me to order 3 How to Read Novels Like A Professor & 4 Till We Have Faces.  These are required summer reading at the high school so we generally try to keep several on hand so that we don't get caught behind the 8-ball.  Ordering these would give us 10 copies of each (unless we sell some of what we currently have in stock before they come in).  So I ordered them.  No, I didn't double-check the last time they were ordered (that is our failsafe--to know if we already have them on order) because I was taking care of customers at the same time.

Well, that afternoon, when our delivery came...I got in 10 Till We Have Faces & 5 How to Read Novels Like A Professor that Cindy had ordered on FRIDAY!!  I kinda laughed but...we'll sell them...it's no big deal.  Cindy happened to come back there while I was still checking stuff in & saw them & had a freaking FIT!  She's actually jumping my shit because I didn't check order status.  I'm like...WHOA!  YOU ordered them Friday...I haven't even been here for a week!  We had a little spitting match & she went away.  I boiled for a bit after that.  Are you fucking kidding me?!  SHE ordered them...SHE told me to order them again...WTF?!  Whatever...

Book Club Karen dropped by later in the afternoon & it was decided that her, Cindy, me & Claire would go to Chili's tonight for drinks & snacks (Cindy is kinda wanting to make this a monthly ritual anyway).  This morning, after the 3rd time she snapped at me...I was OVER it!  And I shut down.  You'd have to know me to even know what that means...how I act (or don't react/don't associate/don't acknowledge anything or anyone around me except whatever I'm focused on).  It is an automatic defense mechanism for me.  It means...I'm trying to shut out whatever is bothering me so that I don't over-react instead.  Around 3 pm, I texted Manda & told her about the situation & told her that I'd just decided I wasn't going out with them.  I just wanted AWAY from her ASAP.  Manda ended up telling Karen (cuz Manda agreed to babysit Kaine, Karen's grandson, so she could go out with us ).  


Mike was up there during all of this.  He was getting drinks for everyone.  He asked what I wanted.  I said I was good, thanks.  He's trying to get me to change my mind &...for whatever reason...he comes up behind me & starts kissing on my ear & the back of my neck!  REALLY?!  o.0  I still didn't change my mind...

At 5 pm, I got my shit & started walking out.  Cindy asks me if I'm going to go save us a booth.  I said no....that I wasn't going.  The look on her face was priceless.  Claire & Maia were all like...OMG, look how sad she looks!  Claire was saying that Cindy was only going cuz I was going.  I'm just like...whatever...waved them off & walked out.  OVER IT, I tell you!  Apparently, Claire wasn't going either...?  Not sure but it looked like she was leaving.

I started on the way home & stopped to get my oil changed.  I'd hit my mileage over the weekend actually.  This guy on my new way home is $2 cheaper than the guy I've been using.  I also knew that my 1st guy had told me last summer I needed a new fuel filter (one that's on it is the original OEM one from '05) BUT he wanted $100 to change it.  So I put it off.  I didn't mention it to this new guy...wanted to see if he'd bring it up.  And he did...lol!  However, he only charged me $29!!  Wow.  And he put new windshield wiper blades on for me.  One of mine was falling apart.  While I was waiting, Cindy was texting me...begging me to come to Chili's cuz she wanted to hang out with me.  We finally got our squabble out in the open.  She apologized.  And I told her...that her snapping at people like this is why she lost Manda & Kelli.  Me...I get pissed/hurt...& I get over it.  You just have to give me time...

I get home & just as I'm finishing bringing the trash can & 2 recycle boxes back up to the house, Mom drives up.  She wants to go to dinner.  Apparently, their dumbass roomie is moving out this weekend...& Bud is blaming her for it!  So they got into this massive argument.  Well, it's not like they don't fight all the time anyway...but yeah...this one was pretty big.  So over dinner, she's telling me that she's going to start looking for a job Monday...& that she might be moving in HERE with me!!  ARGH!!!!  FML.  *sighs*  I hope not...ugh!!  :/

Anyway...so once we get back from dinner & she leaves...I discover Nixon has arrived.  Uh huh.  PMS-ing...THAT'S why Cindy has been able to irk me so bad!!  Granted, she hasn't acted like this for MONTHS. But it happened.  It's over.  It'll take me a day or 2 to really let it go & move on.  And I'm sure she's gonna wanna talk about it some more in the morning.  Ugh.  I just wanna drop it.  Process it & let go of it.

Now my aching body is laying down!!  Long day tomorrow...8:30 am - 7 pm...?  We're testing closing at 7 on Fridays.  Store Karen is coming in the morning & we're going to do some test scanning for the inventory to see how it all actually works.  And so the adventure begins...*laughs*

Crazy...but Good News!

Work was...or seemed...rather nuts today.  For most of the day.  The order that came in was mostly back orders & about 10% of the order was DAMAGED!!  Yeah.  And they'd been doing SO WELL with packing here the last few weeks!  WTF is up with that?!  I simply do not understand why they can do it right for a while & then just arbitrarily fuck it up?!  UGH!!  Sent Robb EIGHT pictures & that wasn't even all of the damage...just the really bad stuff!

Anyway...in the midst of dealing with all of that...I did get good news!  :-)  Todd called.  He'd gone into the system to check my driver's license for me.  The 1st thing he discovered was...that my original FL DL is still VALID!  lol  Til my birthday next year!  ;-)  His advice was to just go online & get a duplicate license.  Some how...some kind of way...NO CLUE...but it had Mom's address for my physical address & Judy's address for my mailing???  No idea.  It even said that it was given up July '08 (when I changed from FL to OK!!)  So he didn't even run the OK license.  He was like...why bother...?!  Your FL one is still good!  lol  So...when I got home, I did just that!  I should have it in a week or so with my CURRENT address!  ;-p  *woot*

Bud just left.  I'm gonna order some dinner & crash soon...what a day!  lol  >.<