On the Edge...

Today...has SUCKED MY ASS!!!!!! Mostly.

I went to bed on time last night...heh. Not that it made much of a difference! I slept more than I did the night before but still didn't sleep well. Sebastian woke me about 4 different times, I think. :/

Worked in Room 4 again today. Sara called me. Then texted me to answer so she could talk. Told her I was at work...so the texts started. Started out fine. I was a little...WTF?!...but I was willing to do whatever she needed. Even offered to leave work for a few minutes so I could do this for her! Soon as I sent that offer, she texted me back with all this BS about how I'm always nasty to her, she's not good enough to be considered a friend, that I take every opportunity to hurt her back. Blah, blah, blah. All I heard out of her was..."Me, me, me!!" Are you fucken kidding me?!?! I think she's lost her fucken mind!!! FIRST OF ALL, you don't ask someone for a favor & then jump down their throat!!! I spent the rest of the afternoon contemplating on even doing what she asked!! Just because of *this*. Secondly, this is MY blog!!!! HELLO?! That means it's about *me*...Other people who affect ME will be discussed but it's not about them...it's about ME!!! Get a fucken clue & get over yourself already. Wow. I don't write in MY blog to benefit her or even stab at her. I write in MY blog about my thoughts & feelings. Seriously?! That totally blew my mind!! She apologized for it, saying she'd had a rough morning. Really?? And I CARE why when I've had a rough year & a half!!!! I care even less because of the way it all went down. I did her fucken favor. I shouldn't have!! She doesn't deserve it, at this point. But it has never ever been my intention to purposefully try to hurt her! My only intention has been trying to survive this hell she has put me through. I should've just left everything the way it was...to finally make her accusations correct. After all, she made her bed...it's about time she figures out how to lay in it...

All of this being said...the reason behind it is that, apparently, Ben has been snooping my blog. Surprise, surprise. He'd crawl up her fucken asshole, if he could! Pathetic piece of shit!! So here's a shout out to you, Ben, when you snoop again: GO FUCK YOURSELF, YOU USELESS BOIL ON THE ASS OF HUMANITY!!! And, no, Sara...I will NOT ever edit this right here! He fucked up MY world. He fucked you up, as well. Cuz you act JUST like him sometimes! You deal with him...I am NOT a part of this in any form or fashion!! This has absolutely NOTHING to do with me whatsoever but, yet...I have to censor MY BLOG for him...& you...??? No. I did it once. Never again...

Needless to say, this drama...put me in quite the foul mood. *SIGHS* But then...Jen woke up & started texting me & all was right with the world again. :-) Sorta. Meh. :/ I'm still irritated as hell! *sighs* But Jen nailed it..her response to a slight description of the morning's drama..."she's a dumb non-deserving cunt". ;-p AHAHAHA!! Stacy whole-heartedly agreed! *smirks* Yes, she got to me. She hurt me. She pissed me off. But...now...I'm OVER it! I blogged about it...in MY blog...cuz...fuck me!! THAT'S WHAT IT'S HERE FOR!! o.0

Ehhh...changing the subject...today is my last day of being able to smoke (mebbies!) Err...well, we'll see what happens anyway! ;-p I may hafta start drinking more...hahaha...so I can live up to that accusation, as well! *snorts* WTFever...dude! *rolls eyes*

I was taking flats of excess into the garage just before closing when I tripped over some empty boxes Savannah left in the middle of the floor...successfully knocking over a stack of boxes that were on the cart! FUCK!!! That HURT!! :-( So I left at 4:45 cuz I was just *totally* over this day all together!! That was the last straw for me...