7/11...

7/11/07...3 years ago today...the day that was the beginning of the end for me. The day Lynny introduced me to Sara in SL. 7/14...will be an even WORSE date to get through though. That was the date i originally submitted to Her. *sighs*

I only just realized that...this *date* has probably subconsciously been wreaking havoc with my soul. I knew the date(s) were coming up...but it wasn't something that I was going to consciously DEAL with!! So...instead...my body & soul have been reacting to it subtlety. It's why I've wanted to do NOTHING but sleep! If I'm asleep...I'm not thinking!! :/ And so, of course, I've gotten absolutely nothing accomplished today--except sleep! Was up at 8:45 this morning but was out again by 11:30. Didn't get up til 4 pm. It's just after 6 & I am ready to go back to sleep! :/ I see now that this is gonna be a total shit week!! Even though I'm not actively dealing with the emotions...my body is still going through the emotions. If EVER I wanted time to just fly by...that would be *now*...