Lazy Day Off...

hahaha Jen & I were on the phone for over 6 hrs last night! ;-p I didn't go to bed til after 4 am...*smirks*

Got up at 1 pm finally. Then STILL got nothing accomplished! lol Wasn't even Jen's fault! *giggles* I just...wanted to veg. I'll do laundry & stuff on Sunday. Got texts from Amanda & Stacy throughout the day. From what I gather, the day at work was...bad. *sighs* So I'm not looking forward to tomorrow & I just wanted to relax today... :/

Got several texts from Ben today. Kat was working--getting ready for school to start back up. But then she kept showing up on Yahoo--both accounts...but I dunno if it was actually her. Last week, I'd messaged her when I saw her on one day & Ben texted me saying she wasn't home. So, yeah, even though I HAD more confidence in messaging her 1st...I don't anymore. :/

Jen & I had a long discussion last night about Ben & Kat & the whole poly issue. I think I'm finally figuring out my hesitance about them. She would let me go to them...if I wanted to. But I don't think I want to. Not right now. I'm too afraid of being their "toy" or being in between them still. Or...the simple fact that they aren't consistent. I need the stability!! I can't do the yo-yo thing anymore. It makes me insane. And THAT'S the reason I continue to hesitate!! But if it ever gets to the point where they TRULY know what it is that they want...it'll be a discussion for all FOUR of us...not just them...& not just me...