Cindy should be back to work on Friday or Saturday. I may be opening most of the week but Kelli was off Saturday (since it was her birthday) so we didn't get a chance to figure it out for sure. I'll go ahead & open this morning & then we'll figure it out when she gets there. Cindy was telling Manda & I on Saturday that she really wants each of us to spend a day at SIBA at the end of September...culminating with all of us being there on Sunday--the last day of it cuz that's when the trade show part of it is open & all of the booths are out, etc. Kelli was saying that Judy always paid for people to go to it in the past but we have no idea what Cindy's gonna do. You have to pay to park, food while you're there, etc. Hotels for staying over but that's kinda dumb since it's in Daytona...so I dunno...guess we'll get all of that figured out the closer it gets to time for it to happen. *shrugs* I would imagine since we'll be off work to go, she'd pay us as if we were at work?? Not sure...we'll see...
Jen & I discussed her trip here in more detail. I'm getting excited about it but...still...a little freaked out! ;-p After all...my only REAL *experience* with this sort of thing was Kathy &...well...I wasn't exactly receptive to her at all. LOL!! ;-p Plus, Jen will be on my turf...not me being in a totally foreign situation...which I think will help. We'll be here at my place for the most part. But we'll most likely get a hotel room at the beach at least for one night--that will be awesome!! It has been...*thinks*...hmm...shit...maybe since Pensacola since I spent time at the beach at night (which I've always loved the most) & that was in 1991! haha Then there's the Halloween party at Da Vinci's which will be freaking AWESOME if it's anything like it was last year!! :D All the girls really want to meet her, too. ;-) Which helps a lot, too. It's extremely ODD being with someone that everybody I know is in approval of!! *smirks*
Speaking of...I spoke to Kat a few times last week & each time, she was doing some random thing that...finally made me realize...I am sooooo *NOT* suited for them! At all. :/ I've always known the politics thing would be an issue. But...I have NEVER been one to be influenced by status enhancers (LOVE the BMW but...I have a thing for nice cars just not for the STATUS that they bring--why I've always picked on her about the Subaru...haha) But, really...the country club membership??? Come on!! *rolls eyes* Yeah, yeah so she says it's so they can play golf...*dies laughing* Ok, so I've always sucked at sports. And...well, I've played putt putt golf & that was fun but REAL golf...no, thanks! And the bowling league? Yeah...there's the sports thing again. I attempted to bowl a few times when I was a teen. Fun cuz it was just that...for FUN! But It's not something I can learn & improve how I play it. lol And the camping thing...yeah...NEVER!!!! No matter WHAT or HOW they went about trying to involve me in that! *laughs* I wouldn't be adverse to going to visit them for several reasons. I want to go back to that part of the world cuz I fell in love with the area & the weather there when I was there & I miss it. I'd love to see the new house. I'd love to see the girls & Bella. I'd truly love the chance to hang out with them & just get to know each other...FINALLY. I guess I still have the need to prove to Ben I'm not evil. I never was. I never had any bad intentions before. I want him to get to know me for me & not as a jealousy issue or a threat to him. I want to get to know her for her & not as a cold fish spaz that she was at the time. But...that's the extent of it. :/ I don't want to go there, KNOWING they will tag team me into doing something I don't really want to do. Because I'd certainly give in...I always do in that kind of situation & I would anyway just *cuz*...but it's been 2 yrs since there was anything even remotely intimate between us...I can't just jump straight back into that! And she doesn't understand that. I was never certain about him even way back when. There's no way I'm ready to even contemplate it now. I still love her & she knows that. A part of me always will. But I have to keep that separate. I owe it to Jen to keep it separate. I've found something with her that could turn out to be REAL & be what I *need* & if I were to go off & lose my mind...all of that would be ruined. I'm not ready to throw her away for one of Kat's whims...I'm well aware that Kat only truly cares every so often & not always...I need more than just occasionally...*sighs*
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