And So It Is...

So...after thinking about mine & Amanda's convo last night...I've just emailed both Sara & Tanya...about THAT whole thing & how I'm feeling about it. I forgive Tanya for betraying me & I'm afraid of Sara because I now feel like the *ULTIMATE* fool. I'm embarrassed by it. I wasn't even really sure of the words until I wrote them. Now, I just have to wait to see their responses. Tanya has been a part of my life since I was 5 years old. She's FAMILY! The only real family that I have. I still love Sara. Not that it matters. But I do. I probably always will. She's important to me...no matter how embarrassed I am, she's still important to me & so...I have to be honest with her. And myself. It's gonna make me crazy til I get responses from them but...off to work I go! :/