V Day...FFS!!! *sighs*

Valentine's Day. What a crock of SHIT!! It is the *singlemost* loneliest day of the year...when you're single!! I've ALWAYS disliked Valentine's. Always. Since childhood.

You remember in elementary school, you used to get the stupid little Valentines from your classmates? I never got very many. Then in jr high...all the girls got balloons or flowers from their parents/boyfriend's parents & it was such a big to-do? Not once did I get to share in that notoriety. I don't remember anything much happening in high school. At least, nothing memorable anyway. But I never got anything then either. I lived my entire adult life getting through the day with nothing. The ONE year ('08) that I did have someone special in my life on that day...it wasn't a GOOD memory!! "Bittersweet" is what I've always tagged it as but...I digress. Because I'm refusing to talk about *Her* anymore. *sighs* Kathy sent me a rose arrangement last year but...you know that whole thing. I didn't want it so it never meant what it was supposed to have meant.

This day has literally SUCKED ASS! Ok, granted...not the ENTIRE day but...enough drama in a short amount of time tainted the whole day! It started with a text from Amanda. Stacy was on FB at the time, so I was chatting with her about it, too. You know, I am SO *over* the both of them at this point in time!! OMFG!

We have not worked with a full crew in almost a year now! I'm so fucken sick of it! It all started when Amanda hurt her stupid neck & we didn't see her for like 3 months. Now Stacy is going back to school (which I highly commend her for & wish her all the luck in the world!) so she's on PT. Kelli is perpetually unhappy--though, in her defense, she has gotten better the last month or so. I think she's finally accepted Cindy & the way the store runs now. But...between Amanda & Stacy...one of them calls out for *something*...seemingly ALL THE TIME...& what happens?! *I* get stuck on the counter!! What does that mean exactly?? It means...MY job...putting books away, spinners, both Rooms 3 & 4...get pushed to the wayside. This has been going on for so long now, that I am virtually overwhelmed with the rooms & the disheaval they are in!! :/ Cindy lets me come in on Sundays to put flats away but you know what...that's my fucken day off...just like everybody else!! I'd rather spend that day just crashing or doing whatever chores/errands that need to be done instead of being at work by myself doing my job that I can't GET to during the week cuz everyone is SOOOO FUCKEN SELFISH!!! Yeah, I call in, too. But you know what? I work every day, in pain. It is a way of life for me & has been since the accident in '99. When I call out, you can be for DAMN SURE I'm past the point of functioning!!!

*takes a deep breath*

We all know how Amanda works. If she even mentions she's not feeling well, we already know that she is going to call in, come in late or leave early. This, uncanny as it is, tends to happen before her scheduled day off & then she will undoubtedly take her day off, too. If she has plans to go out with friends or go on any kind of trip, she is going to come in late/leave early or call in. That's just how it is. Period. End of story. Oh...& this is at least once a week. THEN she has the gall to bitch when Kelli gets upset &/or offers an alternate suggestion--like today (the reason I got the text from Amanda, bitching about Kelli). She'd texted Kelli & told her she was sick & probably wouldn't make it all day tomorrow. Kelli suggested she come in late so that she can make it til 6. This pissed Amanda off & she immediately goes into a tyrade about Kelli being selfish & just wanting to be able to leave early. Ok. My response? I told her I got where Kelli is coming from. It is a HELLUVA lot easier to be short people in the mornings than it is later on. Secondly, Kelli is on salary & comes in every morning at 8ish so she leaves at 5ish--unless something happens & she can't leave. If *I* were Kelli...I'd be out the door, too!! FFS...if she puts in more than her 8 hrs, it cuts into her personal freedom time & reduces her pay rate! I mean, COME ON, Amanda...think about that!! Put yourself in HER place!

Now Stacy. I love her to pieces. More than anyone even knows. But...since she started school, she's getting on my last nerve! I GET it that she wants to drown her sorrows since all this shit happened with Tim. I honestly *GET* it! However, she does nothing but complain about Amanda & Kelli...taking time off. She didn't get her 2 Saturdays off this month cuz THIS Sat, BOTH Cindy & Kelli have somewhere they have to be. So she's bitching about that...cuz she "has so much homework to do!!" You know what? I've been there almost a yr & I have NEVER had a Sat off! So FUCK OFF!! Secondly...if she didn't go out drinking & hanging out with her friends every night...she could do her homework. I told her tonight, when she started bitching about it, that I've tried TWICE to go back to school while working! When you do that, you have NO life! Zip! Nada! None!! Work & school & that's it...there's no time for anything else!! Except...the 1st time I attempted it, I was going to class 3 days/wk, 8 hrs/day, had clinicals for 9 hrs/day twice/wk & was working graveyard shifts for 55-60 hrs/wk. I burnt out after a yr. I slept 2 hrs/day & lived off of coffee, Dr Pepper & chocolate. I didn't see my friends. EVER. The 2nd time, I was only working 40 hrs a wk, had night classes 3 days/wk but they were super involved writing classes with an hr commute every day...my weekends were dedicated to homework & household chores...plus the remaining nights during the week I wasn't in class! I lasted a semester.

I'm just sick of it. They both need to grow up & quit using Kelli as an excuse when their problems have absolutely nothing to do with her! She's at work more than either of them are!! To top things off, apparently Judy resigned from working at the store PT. Not sure what that's about at all but...maybe she's better off.

Happy Fucken Valentine's Day!! Gahhhh...