BRRRR!!!!!

Ok, so...I've been using this old radiator space heater that Judy had given me when it 1st started being cold. It's worked fine, for the most part. Except when it's gotten REALLY cold, it didn't really heat the place up--just took a bit of the nip out of the air. But...it was doable!

I had noticed the other day that 1 of the wheels was looking like it was about to fall off. Though...I'm not sure WHY! Sebastian never bothered it & it stayed in the same place the whole time (not like I've been moving it around the apt or anything). Anyway, Friday morning when I came out of the shower, it was laying on its side, on the floor--the wheel had come off! So I picked it up, put the wheel back on & turned it off cuz I was about to leave for work anyway. It warmed up considerably during the day Friday so when I got home, it was a little nippy in here but not bad. It had started to actually get chilled by the time I was ready to go to bed so I turned the heater on & went to sleep. Ooooook!! So I get up yesterday morning &...BRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Egads!! It was freaking cold in here!! I had to wear my jacket! lol Taking a shower was an adventure! ;-p The heater was putting out ZERO heat! So I just turned it off. Messaged my mom about it cuz she has 1 she uses in her bathroom that she loves so I wanted to know where she got it. I had looked at Wal-Mart before...when it got cold the 1st time & before Judy gave me this one...& didn't see any like hers. They have them online at Wal-Mart but she thinks she actually got hers at Lowes. So the plan was for me to come get hers when I got off work & then order the one online. That was the plan! LOL Mom showed up at the book store around 2ish & brought me hers. haha She'd never been in the store so I showed her around for a bit. It was an absolute ZOO yesterday so I ended up having to abandon her to wander by herself for a while. When I got home, I plugged this one in & it was 56 degrees in here!! Ha! Damn it, Boy! ;-p And that was from being warmed up during the day! Mom had also sent me a message on FB that she'd already ordered the new heater! Sheesh. lol And...I actually got hot during the night! LOVE THIS HEATER!! :D

I'm so tired. Worked 5 days straight, off today but today isn't really an OFF day (got way too much shit to do)...then I work M-F this week. BUT...once I get through that...I'm off Sat, Sun & Mon! WOW!! Mini vacation! lol But...man...I've got so much shit to do today! :/ Doing a load of laundry now. Gotta do kitty litter, vaccuum, clean the bathroom, dishes, & I need to go to Wal-Mart & Publix. Ugh. I just wanna sleep...

I am depressed. I realize that. It's become a constant state of being. And because I'm not talking about it...it makes it worse. But whatever. I see how I'm better than I was even a couple of months ago but not over it...not by a long shot. I seriously doubt that I ever will be. I lost my entire world. That leaves a gaping wound that cannot possibly heal. No matter what...but...ahh...yeah...*sighs*