Resolutions--Week 7

BLEH!! I'm constantly exhausted! Can't manage to buckle down & DO these things! :/ Don't have the energy to apply towards them. Feel like I'm just walking through my life like a zombie. I finally realized that I'm depressed...& that's the biggest reason for me not caring. *sighs* At least, acknowledging it is half the battle...right?! :-(

*Diet: Gained 4.4 pounds this week! YIKES! :-( Still at a total loss of 1.6 pounds though...bleh.

*Smoking: Still smoking! No end in sight...

I've spent the last few days feeling overly FAT & sluggish...& just wanna sleep--nothing else! Except smoke...& eat. Spent yesterday puking every hour or so most of the day. Bleh. But it was yesterday that I realized that even by ignoring it on the outside, successfully burying my head...it doesn't matter. I AM depressed & that's why I have zero motivation. Regardless of how much I deny being bothered or upset...it's STILL affecting me! Bleh...dunno how to pull myself up out of it yet. Just keep ignoring it?

Kelli will be back on Monday. Manda says she'll stay through June (long enough to take her vacation). Dunno what Kelli's planning. Then there's me. I dunno what to do. I really don't care all that much at the moment. *sighs* Being depressed touches every aspect of my life, not just one...