Private Thoughts...

I think...in order to battle this depression...I'm gonna hafta get out some thoughts. Private thoughts. I've kept them bottled up inside, only thinking about them...not processing them. I'll do that tonight...

I've always dealt with things better when I write them out but I've not been allowing myself that capacity here.

I puked 2 more times over night...& again while getting ready for work a bit ago. I'm not "sick". I see that now. Anytime I get depressed like this, it usually manifests itself physically...I get physically ill. I should've realized this sooner. Like earlier in the week. My entire body is aching constantly. That's usually one of the 1st tangible signs...*sighs*