Bad, Bad Day...

Yesterday...was a horrible day. :/

We knew that Cindy had made the decision to fire Stacy...& we were all on edge about it. Kelli had been delegated to deliver the news to her. We were all afraid she'd just explode & walk out. However, when Kelli got there, she told me & Amanda they were putting it off for a while, til they could crunch the numbers for how much Cindy's unemployment rate would rise. They did the numbers & Cindy proposed we could keep Stacy on for Fris & Sats BUT...Kelli would take a pay cut AND revert to hourly wages instead of salary. WTF?! They then decided to just go ahead & let her go. She took it surprisingly well! She was upset, understandably. Amanda & I were busy in Room 4 so we only got info second-hand but, apparently, Cindy & Stacy never spoke to each other after that & Stacy ended up going home around 2ish. Then on a smoke break, Cindy told me she was going to do the same with Lori...next time she comes in to work (which I think is today!). *sighs* Claire only works 3 days a week but she's phasing herself out. She possibly has another job lined up. Savannah isn't coming in too much anymore either cuz of school. That will leave us with 4 people to run this freaking store!! REALLY?! It's not gonna work. PLUS...Cindy is saying that she's leaving me & Amanda on 4 days/week! She is gonna work the 3 of us to death. And the 3 of us are each damaged in our own way so we will all...at some point...go down...for some period of time! We all have back problems. It won't take long til our bodies give out. We're also going into the holiday season when...typically...we get SLAMMED! Also, Nov & Dec, we will be open on Suns. So...4 people...are supposed to properly run a 7000 sq ft store containing 300,000 books (& MORE come in daily!), 9 hrs/day, 6 days/week? I SUCK at math...but even I know we can't accomplish this!!! I've spent the last year reorganizing Rooms 3 & 4 due to the fact we were short handed for 6 months & I didn't have the TIME to properly put books away. We will get overwhelmed yet again now...*sighs*. Not to mention, all of the web stuff & events, etc that we're trying to start up...I'm going to be working 24/7 almost. The future looks really, REALLY bleak at the moment...

Went to book club last night. 1st one I've gone to in 2 months. It was fun, as usual. But Sara called for a bit & I went outside to talk to her. I didn't even care. Had been a total shit day & I wanted/*needed* to talk to her. :/ Got home, knowing I wouldn't be up for long & expecting to get to talk to Jenn for a bit...she was watching tv instead so I just crashed. No remaining energy to put forth any more effort. *sighs*

But Jenn will be here in 6 days. I'm so *READY* for a vacation!! haha Especially after yesterday!! But as far as our relationship goes...I just dunno. I can't foresee what's gonna happen & I've given up trying to. It's just gotta happen at this point. She's gotta be here & we have to spend Real Time with each other. That's going to push this to wherever it's gonna go.

Anyway, I'm just down, I guess. It's affecting everything about me. Disheartened is more like it, I suppose. I'm not depressed...just stressed. I hate drama...& change...& not being stable. :/ Ugh...