Got up at 9:30 this morning, did a load of laundry, did the dishes. That's it. I have a shitload of Watch Instantly movies on Netflix expiring on the 1st so I've just been watching movies all day!! I really wanna finish my book though so I'm done with movies for the night & am gonna read til I go to sleep. :-) Karen brought me the rest of Jeannine Frost's 1st series (3 more books) so I'll start on them after I finish this Karen Chance one I'm on now & the 2nd of hers in this series. SO much to read & so little time! *smirks*
Angel has asked me 3 times now when we're gonna go out again. *laughs* I dunno! It's really up to her--she is the one with 2 jobs, 3 kids, father to take care of, & not to mention...other playmates! haha She's talking more & more about...well, about things getting "personal". I'm still REALLY dragging my feet on that but...I hafta admit...I've given it some thought. I'm not attracted to her. I don't truly feel anything towards her either--not on THAT kind of level. But who needs love anyway?? It's all a crock of shit & is entirely over-rated anyhow!! So I dunno...go with the flow...stop over-thinking things...stop caring whether anything matters or not & just get what little excitement I can out of each day. It's a whole NEW me!! New...but certainly not improved! Actually...worse off than before the damage was done but what can ya do?! o.0 Just gotta play the hand you're dealt in life...I'm tired of being miserable & lonely just because I don't trust anyone & can't manage to have TRUE feelings anymore. It's not worth it...*sighs*
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