I feel HUMAN again today! WOOHOOOOOOO!!!! haha I even started back on my vitamin regimen again (I've been totally off of it since being sick). Hoping there's no adverse reactions to the iron pills. Ick. I am shortly going to take a LONG OVERDUE shower, do kitty litter, do the dishes & then...I dunno...haha. I should prolly go to Wal-Mart & Publix cuz I'm not sure when I'm gonna have a day off. It's scheduled for tomorrow but I'm going in.
One brief note about Kat. She's *obviously* still playing WoW. She's coming on FB more often than her normal. The people she keeps adding as friends are all WoW players...therefore, she's still currently involved in WoW. Last I heard from her was Jan 4. She can play WoW & she can go on FB so she's not being so closely supervised as she protested...obviously. But she can't make contact? She always got pissed off when I'd claim she'd lied to me. Must've been her guilty conscience protesting? Cuz really...she can't explain away to me how she's adding new WoW people to her FB & *NOT* playing WoW. Seriously...
I spent several hours in SL last night. Ran into Shanna, Linda & Lee while there. No lie...EVERY SINGLE PLACE I went to...on a Saturday night even...was *completely* deserted!! Reminded me why I've not really tried getting back in there. :/ You know, other than the OBVIOUS reason! Ha! I only ever did one thing in there...& I don't really want to travel down that road again. I mean...I *do*...deep, deep, deep down...cuz...I miss it. I have that empty place there. But...then I don't. The LOGICAL side of me doesn't want to do it again. Linda is still feeling super guilty about introducing me to Kat. I wish she'd stop that. :/ But she kept begging me to start coming in again & hanging out at her place. She now covers 2 full sims with her properties! OMG how she's grown in there! I'm proud of her! :-) And she said DJ & Tan were both asking about me the other night. I'm torn. I'm lonely enough to attempt going back inworld to fill the void. But if I start going back in, I will stop doing EVERYTHING else! I mean absolutely *everything* else!! FB, reading, movies...all of it. Do I really, truly wanna go there again?! Especially when I *know* what my niche in SL is & I will inevitably fall back into it...? But...I dunno...if I fall back into it with someone who is semi-decent...it could possibly finish getting me finally past the rest of this hurt of Kat. I mean...for a big part of it anyway. Is that such a bad thing? A true conundrum indeed. I guess it just depends on how lonely I really am, huh? I've been denying admitting that to myself, as of late. But I know it's there. I'm just scared to address it. I'm scared to attempt to let someone else ease it. I'm scared to...let go...of Her. I'm scared to finally close that door. I'm so scared that tears are rolling down my cheeks...
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