Somber-ness...

Today was...a really...low-key kinda day for me. It wasn't intentional. Just...no joy. Not sad. Just...blah. So, on those days, I tend to be really quiet. Everyone at work noticed. Ugh. *rolls eyes* Kelli came as the spokesperson for the 3 of them & asked if I was ok. I *am* ok. Just...I hate this time of year. I have for years. I always get a little down anyway. This year, it feels a lot worse than in years past. *sighs* Then Stacy came out to have a smoke with me once & she was talking to me. It bothered her that I wasn't giggly & normal. Again, not intentional & nothing I can really do to lift that mood. She kept saying we need to have a Girls Night & get me drunk so I can cry it out or whatever. lol What she doesn't understand is that I already cry. A lot. Crying doesn't help. Just makes me frustrated! :/ Me...drunk...when I'm like this...does NOT make for a good combo! ;-p Getting drunk is not what I need. I need time. About 2 weeks...lol. Get past these stupid freaking holidays!! Then I can go back to my normal low. Ha! *shrugs*

So we had our monthly book club meeting tonight. Not our NORMAL meeting, of course (freaking holidays ruin yet something else!). lol No, really...it was fun. We ate (like normal) but had more desserts than normal. And we added alcohol to the mix! haha I had 2 shots of Tequila Rose. Had never even heard of that before! YUM!! And a daquiri. Maybe Stacy is right...? I did feel a little better after the shots...hmm. Anyway, then we had our Chinese Ornament Exchange. That was funny! I ended up with a little black penguin. He'll blend into my black xmas tree! ;-) Then we played a game called Left-Right-Center. A dice game. I'd never heard of it either. I won the 1st pot. Jen won the last one. Then it was 9 pm & Judy, Amanda & Stacy were leaving so I left, too. I'm gonna be up late cuz I'm out of my routine but I did need to go ahead & come home to start unwinding.

Sebastian was just RETARDED when I got home! LOL O. M. G. He was talking (or rather...squeaking cuz he hasn't exactly learned how to meow yet!) non-stop & ALLLLLL over me for like an hour! Granted, this is the 1st time since I've had him that he's been home alone for 12 hours... :/ He's calmed down now but he's not venturing too far away from me yet.

Maybe I'll watch this vampire movie of Lori's. I'm gonna be up anyway. And I've started *really* slacking with FB. I don't think I've updated my status since Saturday...