No More Chances!!

I am the Queen of Second Chances! Or, at least, I *was*! No more!!! I'm through being everyone's doormat. I've finally had it. I've wasted sooooo much time & energy trying to be a friend to people or trying to mend broken bridges when...all along...they were truly never WORTH the effort!! So...I'm done. ANY relationship is a 2-way street. One person cannot carry it alone. So, from now on...those people who can't seem to give but only take...they can just fuck off!! No longer will I waste any effort on those that I have been...whether I care about them or not is irrelevant. My caring about them is not going to make them be a better friend (OBVIOUSLY or it woulda worked by now!)

End of the Week...YAY!!!

2 more days to go & then it's Sunday! YAY!! I love Sundays! lol

Cindy left today, headed to Phoenix. She'll be back on Wednesday. Hopefully when she gets back, she'll have calmed her nerves a bit!! :/

Stacy still isn't working FT. And some of the days she IS working...are HALF days!! WTF?! WHY??? Whatever...she doesn't work when she's there...she's just another body. :/

Amanda is coming in late tomorrow. Kelli is working a half day & won't be there at all on Saturday cuz Trent is graduating. So Saturday, I'm opening. No biggie...

I FINALLY finished the Ms today on my Room 3 project!!!! WOOHOOOOOO!!!! Only took like a week! *snorts & dies* I made it into the Os today! ;-) I have 3 more bookcases left on that last aisle on the left side of the room. Then I'll flip over to the right side. At that point, it should be easy-peasy!! I'll be able to see the light at the end of the tunnel!! :D

Tattoo is healing well. It's still tender to the touch but no more fever in it. A tiny bit of it is trying to peel. :/ Dan came in today to see Amanda & he had to check its progress!! lol Everyone seems to really like it. I LOVE it! :D I already want another one...hahaha!! Just have no idea WHAT! *chuckles*

COME ON SUNDAY!!! I'm tired!! I wanna sleep! ;-p

INK!!! :D

*COMPLETELY* symbolic!! haha And turned out soooo much better than I was anticipating!! ;-)

The Simple version: My heart is forever locked away, from anyone. It's been a year & a half & nobody else has gotten in. Nobody else will, at this point.

The Specific version: The broken *red* heart is surrounded by the blackened *purple* heart. Both are *bound* by *rope* & *lock*ed away.

So I was so freakishly nervous about getting tattooed by Dan!! LOL Amanda is always bruised, red, puffy, etc when he works on her. Mike had him do a piece not too long ago & said he HURT like a Mutha!! haha Apparently...Manda & Mike are wussies!! AHAHAHA ;-p It hurt, sure. Tattoos don't TICKLE!! *snorts* But it was nothing more than the normal "hurt". *shrugs* He made up the design right there on the spot. And he didn't charge me for it!! I just tipped him!! Totally wasn't expecting that!! :D

But...the absolute BEST part of the experience...hahaha...I haven't heard from Sara since the 7th. Like I said before, she's backed off totally. I get a text from her, about halfway through the tattoo being done! HA!! The text was telling me she'd broken up with her boy toy yesterday. AHAHAHAHAHAHA!! OMG. Just how IRONIC can you get?!?! *snorts* But, then again, she's always had a knack about doing this kinda ironic shit anyways...*sighs*. And it STILL freaks me the fuck out when she manages to do it again...ugh...

Don't get me wrong...I'm NOT laughing about her breaking up with her toy. Sure, I think her moving the girls & herself to TX to be with him would be her BIGGEST mistake ever...but that doesn't mean I'm callous enough to laugh at the break up. I'm laughing at the irony of hearing from her PERIOD, while I'm symbolically getting inked *because* of her & she's telling me nothing more than she's broken up with him...I'm just sayin! You couldn't have possibly planned something like that to happen the way it did! ;-)

Rude Awakening!!

Well, today has been a complete wash!! lol

Started at 5:30 am when Sebastian woke me up. That's a daily occurrance anyway but usually it's from him playing. Not this morning!! He likes being on the headboard so he can look out the window. So he jumps from the headboard to the bed multiple times a day/night. I'm used to it!! However, this morning...he jumped down on the bed in the middle (usually he jumps on the sides). And...landed on ME!! His back foot got me. He split my upper lip in 2 places & left a hole in my nose! OUCH!!! Rude awakening indeed!! :/ My nose was gushing blood for several minutes so by the time I got it to stop...I was awake! *sighs*

Stayed awake til about 8 am & then slept til 12:30. Got up. Didn't do much. Didn't do some of my leftover chores that needed to be done. lol FB, movies & reading instead! haha I haven't really eaten in over 2 days so I tried to make some dinner (at 3:30 pm LOL). Didn't eat much of it. Made me kinda nauseous. Then I ended up napping again around 5:30 pm. That's prolly gonna prove to be a BIG mistake when I'm still wide awake at midnight! haha ;-p I slept til 7:30 pm. Reading til I finally go back to sleep...

Sara has backed off...yet again. It was only a matter of time. *sighs* Whatever. I can't keep her from doing it, of course. It's just frustrating as Hell!!! Argh!! I feel like I'm still her fucken toy she takes out & plays with whenever it suits her. I can't IMAGINE treating people like that so I really don't get it. :/ But again...it's whatever!

Work tomorrow. Getting inked by Dan on Tuesday. Work & Book Club meeting with Chinese food (YUM!!) on Wednesday. I want to finish Every Which Way But Dead by Kim Harrison (FINALLY!!) sometime this week so I can give it to Amanda. I think I've been reading it since February! LMAO!! ;-p I *should* flip to the right side of Room 3 sometime this week so that I can see the light at the end of the tunnel with this project. The rest of the week will just be work. Not exactly "busy" but...full, nonetheless. Stacy should be back to work FT now that school is out for the summer. That's gonna help with some of the work load, for sure! Hopefully, people's nerves & raw edges will soften up some again finally... :/

Fun...Coming!!

YAY!!! Weekend! Well, my "version" of it, at least! haha My Sunday. Technically, it's still Saturday night though! lol ;-p

Man...I was hurting so freaking bad last when I got home that I doped up & slept with the heating pad!! Course, I had to fight Sebastian for it! HAHA Apparently, he REALLY likes it! *snorts* But...sleeping with it was really, really useful!! For most of the day today, I felt pretty much human! I haven't felt this good in WEEKS!! Sooo...at least now I know what gives some relief...til this freaking project is finally over with! Speaking of...I've got a row & half left to do on the left side & then I'll flip over to the right side of the room & finish up. I'm still in the freaking Ms! LOL There's too many damned authors with names that start with M! HA!! ;-p

I'm driving into my driveway tonight & along the back fence, I see this flower...it's purple! So, OF COURSE, I need a closer look! lol Took the cam, just in case...

Was the WEIRDEST looking thing I've ever seen!! But so freaking cool!! :D No idea what it is but I posted the pic on FB. I figured if Amanda saw the pic, she'd know what it is...the flower freak that she is! LOL Sure enough!! She tells me it's a Passion Flower & it's native to this area. SWEET!! So I asked her, just out of curiosity, if there's any public gardens, etc, around here. Couple in Orlando, one in Ormond. So the more we talked, we made a "date"! LMAO!! The Sunday before Memorial Day, she & I are gonna go to one of these gardens! *WOOT* Can't wait! ;-) I LOVE this kinda stuff! :-)

After we talked about flowers, she asked if I'd ever gotten scheduled with Dan for him to do my tattoo. Nope. :/ I've been (actively) trying to schedule with him since last Tuesday!! :/ I wanna do it on my day off & he's off on Sundays so it narrows the timeframe down quite a bit. She talked to him for me--he's booked all next week...I'm off Tuesday...so he's gonna go in early for me & do it Tuesday morning at 10 am!! YAY!!!!! But...now I'm getting nervous! lol Everyone that I've talked to that's been inked by him, says he HURTS!! He's really heavy-handed. He bruises Amanda when he does her!! Ack! :/ But...he's good. And I know him. So...I'm just gonna suck it up! LOL

hahaha So TWO great things have happened tonight--date with Manda to see pretty flowers & appointment to get inked!! And it's not even Sunday yet!! :D BRING ON THE WEEKEND!!

LAZY!!!

GAH!! I had sooooooooooo much shit I needed to get done today!! All I accomplished was laundry & a nap!! Ugh. I am hurting so freaking bad at this point that I'd rather not move unless absolutely necessary!! :/ I guess Sunday will be a mandatory chore day--no matter what! *sighs* I am so freaking worn out...

And so OVER ceratin bullshit!! ARGHHHHH...wtfever, dude!!

Ahhh...Sunday!!!

It has been a SUPER loooooooong week! Ack! :/

Drama. Constant drama! Being Switzerland is fucken EXHAUSTING, dude!!! *sighs* It didn't used to be like this...ugh!

Amanda has been gone since Thur. Comes back on Tue. Her & Dan went to the tattoo convention in Orlando. She wasn't able to work an entire day at ALL last week so that hurt (us). I *get* it...but I don't. I mean, I understand the panic attacks & the breakdowns that come outta nowhere but she's FINE with Dan...FINE being home...it's just at work that bothers her?! I...don't get it! Stacy only works maybe 3 days/wk. Cindy has been...I dunno...bonkers! lol She's on overdrive! haha Sales slow down in the summer...she's just realizing that now & it's freaking her out. She's talking about cutting hours, changing store hours, etc. I dunno! I'll just do whatever. *shrugs* Kelli hurt her back. Was out Fri & Sat. Hopefully she's there tomorrow cuz it's just me, her & Cindy scheduled!! UGH!

This Room 3 Project is kicking my ass!! Tomorrow starts our 7th week of this & I will hit the halfway mark tomorrow. At this point, it's all I can do to MOVE anymore. Everything hurts. Continuously. Zero relief from it at all. Kelli said it right yesterday...when this is finally finished, I'm gonna need a 2 week vacation! LOL

The Trash (my fucken retarded nasty ass step-sister, Chrissy) is down here visiting. She's got her 5 month old son with her. I'm SHOCKED he's actually still alive so far! But...he hasn't got a chance. She barely feeds him cuz she doesn't want him to get fat! o.0 She gives him baby food in his bottle cuz she doesn't wanna actually FEED him!! She came down here from OH with NO bottles, food, diapers or anything for him! OMG! She's just a fucken moron. And, of course, I'm hearing all of this from my mom but she can't just tell me stuff...she has to yell & scream about it. *sighs* That shit always makes me...nervous. I don't like it. Anyway...

Yesterday was Joe's birthday. He was supposed to get a fruit basket delivered at the store & I was gonna bring it home. Nobody told me that it had actually gotten there yesterday so I left at 4:30, totally forgetting about it. Got home & texted Savannah to see if it was there. It was. I was having dinner with my mom (why I left earlier) so after dinner, I went across the street to the store, got the basket & brought it over to Kelli's (Joe & Judy weren't home yet). Sheesh! :/

But now...it's AHHHH...Sunday!! Yay! Rest. I haven't done a damned thing all day except FB, watch movies, read & took a nap! ;-) I'm not ready to go back to work...*sighs*. It all hurts...

Birthday Weekend...

It's been a good weekend. I mean, better than normal anyways! Yesterday was my birthday & I haven't "celebrated" my birthday for a few years now. I didn't plan on celebrating this one either but it all just kinda took over! lol I didn't hide my birthdate soon enough on FB so I got a crapload of birthday wishes from friends all day (some even started on Fri night!). I ended up not having to work after all so, instead, I went to the beach!! It was super crowded! But, then again, it WAS Saturday! lol I had to drive down the beach for about 10 minutes before I found a parking space! That's quite a ways when you're going 10 mph. ;-p But as far as it being crowded by people, not so much. Which was weird...lol. I pretty much had a pretty big vacant area all to myself! A horseshoe crab washed ashore & caused a big commotion for a while. He was HUGE! Probably about the size of a dinner plate. Assholes kept poking him & stuff. It was pissing me off. :/ Finally a guy put him back out into the water. Poor thing. I laid down & just relaxed for a while. So relaxed, in fact, that I caught myself dozing off! LOL That's when I knew I had to get up & get going. I went & waded in the water for a bit. It was fabulous! Then I headed home.

Got home, showered, ate & laid down to wait for Amanda. I...uhh...dozed off! lol She finally called & I went to The Abbey to hang with her for a bit & have a birthday drink. It was nice. Came back home & Bastian & I watched a movie. lol

Got up this morning & basically did nothing but watch a couple of movies til 5 pm when I headed over to my mom's for birthday dinner, cake & to watch The Blind Side. Good movie but wasn't what I was expecting. It didn't make me cry either! *shock* Now I'm home & should be in bed soon. It's been a helluva week that ended decently.