Broken Promise?

The other day...(I don't really remember when--a few days ago...Thursday-ish??) I noticed on FB that Lee is now "in a relationship" with Don.  Kinda gutted me.  :/  They've been dating for a few months already anyway...I've known that!  I think it was just the fact that she announced it on FB...COMPLETELY out-of-character for her to do!  *sighs*  Yes, I'm a bit jealous.  He's jealous of me, too, though.  Ugh.  But that wasn't the reason really.  I dunno how to explain it.  :/  Then yesterday, I saw on my News Feed that he'd made a status about her being home from surgery; doing well & resting.  WTF?!  o.0  She PROMISED she'd tell me if/when that happened again!!  To say I was devastated...is putting it mildly!  :-(  I messaged her before I went to work.  No answer.  So I messaged again after I'd gotten home.  Still...no answer.  At this point, all of the feelings I've been rebuilding for her again has pretty much been shut down.  A combination of the 2 incidents, I'm sure.  I simply CAN'T go back down this road again!!  EVER.  So it stops here.  I'll always be her friend.  That's a given.  But no more "I love you", no more planning a visit, no more letting her feed my Domme void.  None of it.  *sighs*  I.  Just.  Can't.

Annie is in the process of getting her & Brittany moved down here, to where her family is.  I sincerely think she'll regret that move!  I've known her for 5 years & she's ALWAYS complained about her dad & brother being overly "religious" & uptight, etc.  I can't imagine she'll be ok with that...& with Boo being raised around that.  I tried to talk her into moving in with me.  I've made several off-handed comments both in regular FB & in the group...that she doesn't respond to.  :/  Whatever.  I've stopped trying with that, too.  It would've been a WIN-WIN situation for both (all 3) of us if she'd moved in here...  :-(

So with my spirits being wounded over Kelli, Annie & Lee...not to mention, I'm STILL battling Sara's memory...I've been pretty down this last week.  *pouts*  I can FEEL it, weighing me down, making me sad.  But not much I can really do about it...

Yesterday, just before I left work, I cracked my knee on the Cash Rack bookshelf.  OWWWWWW!!!!  I have trouble with my knees anyway...but everyone KNOWS how it hurts when you hit them.  There was a guy standing pretty close to me when I did it, so I played it off like I was just bent over, studying which books to put away next.  When, in all actuality, I was applying pressure to my knee & attempting to keep the tears at bay while my stolen breath slowly came back to me.  :-(  It hurt like a MOFO!!!  Ow...ow...owwww!!!  Today...there's a big bruise there & it hurts every time I touch it.  :/

Bud is still tiling.  I think he's almost completed the 2nd bedroom.  Still needs to do the laundry room.  But I'm REALLY thinking hard about going ahead & having my House-Warming Party before the end of the month.  I'm also considering (heavily) having Book Club here next Wednesday night.  I haven't exactly decided yet.  If I can manage to do some spot cleaning today & tomorrow, I may call Karen & have her spread the word for Wednesday...

Anyway...being down, I feel like I need to be proactive & make myself involved in things that will lift my spirits.  But the bigger part of me just wants to hide for a while...bleh...