Roll On, 18 Wheeler...

Within a few short minutes of waking up this morning, I found out on FB...that Chris was in an accident yesterday evening.  An accident he didn't come out of.  Chris was a long-haul trucker for many years.  It was always a "possibility"...but you still don't expect it to happen.  :/  Stunned is putting it mildly.  It's almost surreal.  I JUST talked to him last week!  :/

No less than 5 minutes after I'd seen the news, Lee called me.  She'd just seen it, too.  I then tried calling Annie--left a voicemail.  She called me back a few minutes later.  To say we had a conversation is just...wishing.  She isn't coherent much at all.  And my heart broke into a million pieces for her.  She only talked about Boo (daughter, Brittney, 11 years old)...when I could understand her at all.  :/

Now I can't quit crying.  He pissed me off to high Heavens like men can do so easily...but...just...OMG.  :-(  I keep looking at this pic of the 3 of us from SL...

You just NEVER KNOW!!  Anything can happen to anybody at anytime!  I guess, because I'm getting older now, more aware of my world...this is affecting me more than it would've in the past.  From now on, I will take every opportunity I'm given to TELL those that I care about...that I care about them.  You just never know when something you say to someone is the last thing you'll ever get to tell them...*cries*

Careful What You Wish For...

I made the comment that Sara needed to stop stalking my blog & just talk to me directly.  Be careful what you wish for!!  She started emailing me this morning.  *sighs*  And NOW, I'm right smack dab in the middle of trying to get her to understand that MOST of whatever hurt her/pissed her off...was not ME!  It was what she took from what I said & ran with it, making it end up not being anything close to what I originally said!  I will never convince her of this, I know that.  But I tried anyway.  Now I have a throbbing headache & I'm tense & uptight &...just...ughhhhh!!!  I fucken HATE this...

Sickness Everywhere!

Well, Lori is sick, too!  So is Amanda.  Kelli, me, Cindy.  Lori & Cindy don't generally have the allergies like Manda, Kelli & I...so we're kinda wondering if it's not the smoke from the 2 wildfires that have been burning/smoldering for the last month.  :/  Had a customer come in today that works at Walgreens Pharmacy & she said they've seen a HUGE influx of people picking up stuff for allergies/sinuses since the fires started.  Dunno...

Karen came in around 1 pm & we worked on Anthology for a while.  At least, til I was so miserable I couldn't think straight anymore.  lol  I left at 3:15 pm.

Got home & Mom & Bud were here.  All I wanted to do was sleep!  *sighs*  I did actually just pass out for a few minutes.  Not that I actually went to sleep but I just couldn't stand up any longer.  This working while being sick is for the birds!  *snorts*

Got up just as they were getting ready to leave at 6:15.  Watched a movie, took a bath...I'll read til the meds kick in.  ;-p

Update...

Kelli just called.  As soon as I answered, she says, "OMG!  You sound like shit!"  AHAHAHAHA!!  Thanks for the confirmation!!  ;-p  *smirks*  So, yeah, she's got the sinus pressure & headache...NOT the endless snot, coughing, congestion, fever/chills that Cindy & I have!  Lucky bitch!  lol  Anyway...so she's gonna open & I'm just gonna show up...whenever I get there.  ;-)  Watch...I'll wake up at 6:30...LMAO!

Sick, Sick, SICK!!

Cindy & I are BOTH sick!  How awesome.  o.0  She's off tomorrow.  I ended up leaving at 2:45 pm.  I'll have Kelli with me tomorrow.  According to Sava, she's sick, too!  But I haven't seen her to know if it's like what Cindy & I have.  :/

I let Cindy do all of the counter work today.  She checked in the order by herself, too.  I was trying to input the ISBNs that Karen scanned yesterday but the majority of them aren't coming up...ANYWHERE!  So, like, I had no idea what they were (except Serendipity books cuz that's the section she's in)...Anthology wouldn't pull them...neither would Amazon or Ingram.  So we had to backtrack a little today & she went back & got me full info so that I can at least create a manual entry.  Bleh.  lol

Blog got stalked AGAIN today!  Ugh.  It's CRAZY how just knowing she's reading my blog makes my spine bristle & brings back EVERY OUNCE of misery, trepidation, fear, anger & general uneasiness!!  *sighs*  Soo...the next free moment I have, I'll create another blog elsewhere...so that she doesn't have access to me.  It's the only choice I have to keep her from being able to fuck with my life!!  Anyone who wants to continue reading me, can message me & I'll send them the new link...

Getting Sick...

All day yesterday, my throat was kinda scratchy & stuff.  Then about 9 pm, I started  sneezing my head off!  You know what happens to your head when you sneeze a lot?  Yeah, well, I thought it was gonna split open  & I had snot everywhere!  UGH!  Couldn't breathe, etc.  Was up every hour or so, just achy & head pounding.  Woke up this morning & it's almost full-blown.  I've felt like total crap all day!  :/  But...I got drugs after work & am going to dope up soon.  Though...I have to stay awake til at least 9:30 pm cuz Mom is dropping by after her poker game.  *sighs*  She wants to see what I did with the living room yesterday & drop off laundry.  lol

Karen & I worked on inventory today.  I simply cannot concentrate on that & wait on customers, too.  I was getting so pissed off!  LOL  Not at customers...at Cindy.  She was back there at her desk like nothing was going on.  Seriously?!  So I told her she's going to have to figure shit out cuz I'm going to start doing this at night so I can actually get shit accomplished!  Nobody is there with her tomorrow so I have no choice but to go in on my normal time but just...UGH!

Apparently, Sara is stalking my blog again.  Guess school is out & she's bored.  Whatever.  She should TALK to me if she's sooo fucken interested!  But I won't kiss her ass so she wouldn't attempt that.  She fucked this up by ASSUMING & refusing to talk/listen to me.  She did that once before & it damn near killed me.  I will not forgive her for doing it to me a 2nd time.  End of story.  But she needs to fucken get off my page...if she can't talk to me directly...not that I have any clue of what I'd say to her...

It just irks me to no end that she can totally block me from everything AS IF I WAS THE ONE IN THE WRONG...but she can read my blog anytime she feels like it...unless I totally uproot myself & change everything I've done in the last 2 1/2 years...just to avoid her.  That's not fair to me.  FUCK THAT.

Productive Monday...

Was off today.  Slept til 9:30 am.  lol  When I got awake, I started working on the living room.  Put the mattress cover & sheet on the futon & then moved it against the wall.  Draped the throw over it & added the pillows.  Brought out the papasan chair, coffee table & end table.  Then the floor lamp & rug.  Then I got down to the business of putting the bookcase together.  Thought I had it all done except for adding the shelves & realized one of the top sides was backwards!  ARGH!  Had to undo that side & fix it.  lol  Luckily it wasn't all that difficult.  ;-)  I could just see me having to take it COMPLETELY apart!  *snorts*  I then put the shelves in & unpacked the remaining 2 boxes of books.  This was most of the big items.  Still have some accessorizing to do!  ;-)

After that, I made dinner, watched a movie, had some laughs with a few of the Bi Poly peeps (so much fun that I ended up having to call Lee...ahaha!!)  *grins*  Then a bath...*laughs*.  Now I'm just gonna read til I fall asleep.  ;-)  It's been a really good day.  :-)

Weekend Catch Up!

Cindy & I didn't really "resolve" our issue face-to-face.  It was all via text over a 2-3 day period.  lol  But I've stepped back, stopped pampering her...just letting her do it all.  She will be responsible for everything regarding the store all next week, too.  I will be concentrating on inventory!  Karen & I spent some of Friday test scanning, creating entries in Anthology, me on the phone with Tom 3 times because certain aspects of the system weren't working properly.  He was remotely in our system even after I left, trying to get it to print barcodes like it's supposed to!  I've come to the conclusion...that's he's a complete moron though!  Wow.  He doesn't belong anywhere near the Tech Support department!  o.0

Saturday I focused on processing & helping customers.  I'm still not really back to my "normal" of talking & interacting with Cindy.  I feel undermined, belittled & taken advantage of still.  Maybe once we get Anthology up & running, she will have had to handle her entire business ALONE long enough to realize her mistake.

Tuesday, Karen & I will really jump into doing inventory.  Which means...most of our time spent at the store will be at night, after it's closed!  Though Cindy doesn't want us there any later than midnight.  I dunno.  I don't think we'll do full 8 hour shifts...but who knows?  Take it day by day...

Bud has my living room & dining area done.  I went to Target last night & got a large bookcase.  I'm going to start arranging what I can of my furniture & accessories for the living room tomorrow.  ;-)  Planned on doing that today but...I got sidetracked!  haha  ;-p

I didn't get up today til 12:15 pm!  HA!  ;-)  Cleaned kitty litter & swept my room, cleaned my bathroom.  Bud got here about 2:30 pm & started working on the 2nd bathroom (taking the toilet up & repairing that, etc).  Around 4, I stopped what I was doing & sat outside, on the phone, with Lee.  For hours!  :D  Of course, she made me cry within a minute of getting on the phone with her!  :/  She had yet another surgery on Friday. This is the 3rd in the last 2 1/2 years.  Cancer.  This time...she didn't tell me about it.  And that's why I cried.  Because of her reasons for not telling me.  :/  She's getting to the point of not wanting to put me through the worry part of it.  She didn't even tell Kayla this time either.  Her own daughter.  So...I said to her...what if...the WORST had happened...& we'd lost her.  I wouldn't have had ANY clue!!  lol...apparently Kayla said almost the EXACT same thing to her!  ;-p  I made her promise...if there's a next time...she TELLS me...regardless!  Ugh.  *sighs*  DUH...I get upset & worry when she tells me it has come back...& I stay worried til she gets it taken care of!  Sheesh.  That's natural!  :-(  But I'd rather know than NOT to.  Anyway, after that...we had a pretty deep & daunting convo.  With what Steve put her through a few months ago, the Cancer coming back & all...she's changing.  Her world is evolving.  She's taking a closer look at her life & the people in it.  She's been "out" to her circle of friends for several months now.  She told me today...she's also "out" to most of her family...& most recently, to Kayla!  :-)  But Kayla surprised her.  haha  Said she already knew!  And she only knew because of me!  LMAO!  Kayla told her she knew there HAD to be something "more than just friends" between us.  *snorts & laughs*  I kept telling her she wasn't as stealth as she thought she was...AHAHAHA!!  I've told her that for 4 years!  *smirks*  We talked a lot about this Bi-Poly group I'm in on FB, what all I've been learning...& realizing about myself.  We talked about her emotional/psychological fallout from the Steve incident.  Before we hung up, she (somewhat jokingly) asked me to come to Canada & just marry her already so that we're both finally happy.  *chuckles*  I told her I'd try to come visit sometime this summer instead.  ;-)

I remember, 4 years ago, a time when I wanted (so much) for her to want JUST ME.  While, at the same time, I was really mostly ok with not being the ONLY one...as long as I was her Primary.  BUT...I also did NOT want to let go of Sara & Ben.  I was very achingly aware that I was simply a diversion for them  & meant nothing (not REALLY--not anything special anyway)...but I still wanted them in my life...with her.  It's all so very complicated & convoluted!  *laughs*  But...*sighs*...I cannot even describe what I felt when Lee said today..."I want to be selfish & be someone's only finally & have them as my only...finally.  To the point where absolutely no one else matters!  And I want that to be you..."

I cannot even begin to tell you how disturbing & difficult it was to even entertain the idea of being someone's...ANYONE'S...Only!!  It's kind of frightening actually.  Poly was never a part of my ideal relationship speculation.  It was something I was introduced to, did a lot of reading, learning & soul searching to even get to the point of considering.  I evolved into it.  At this point, I'm not sure that I'd ever believe someone would EVER be monogamous with me...or me with them either.  o.0  But I'm getting ahead of myself here.  Lee & I aren't in a relationship.  And unless she's REALLY going to stay in this particular frame of mind, it's pretty pointless to stress over it just yet anyway.  ;-)

It is utterly AMAZING how we change, over time, isn't it?!  :-)  How other people, experiences, feelings, emotions can change us?  Hmm...

The Story of Us - Taylor Swift

Even though it's well BEYOND over...this still screams to me...ugh...lol

PMS-ing!!

Yesterday morning, as I'm finishing up the order, Cindy tells me to order 3 How to Read Novels Like A Professor & 4 Till We Have Faces.  These are required summer reading at the high school so we generally try to keep several on hand so that we don't get caught behind the 8-ball.  Ordering these would give us 10 copies of each (unless we sell some of what we currently have in stock before they come in).  So I ordered them.  No, I didn't double-check the last time they were ordered (that is our failsafe--to know if we already have them on order) because I was taking care of customers at the same time.

Well, that afternoon, when our delivery came...I got in 10 Till We Have Faces & 5 How to Read Novels Like A Professor that Cindy had ordered on FRIDAY!!  I kinda laughed but...we'll sell them...it's no big deal.  Cindy happened to come back there while I was still checking stuff in & saw them & had a freaking FIT!  She's actually jumping my shit because I didn't check order status.  I'm like...WHOA!  YOU ordered them Friday...I haven't even been here for a week!  We had a little spitting match & she went away.  I boiled for a bit after that.  Are you fucking kidding me?!  SHE ordered them...SHE told me to order them again...WTF?!  Whatever...

Book Club Karen dropped by later in the afternoon & it was decided that her, Cindy, me & Claire would go to Chili's tonight for drinks & snacks (Cindy is kinda wanting to make this a monthly ritual anyway).  This morning, after the 3rd time she snapped at me...I was OVER it!  And I shut down.  You'd have to know me to even know what that means...how I act (or don't react/don't associate/don't acknowledge anything or anyone around me except whatever I'm focused on).  It is an automatic defense mechanism for me.  It means...I'm trying to shut out whatever is bothering me so that I don't over-react instead.  Around 3 pm, I texted Manda & told her about the situation & told her that I'd just decided I wasn't going out with them.  I just wanted AWAY from her ASAP.  Manda ended up telling Karen (cuz Manda agreed to babysit Kaine, Karen's grandson, so she could go out with us ).  


Mike was up there during all of this.  He was getting drinks for everyone.  He asked what I wanted.  I said I was good, thanks.  He's trying to get me to change my mind &...for whatever reason...he comes up behind me & starts kissing on my ear & the back of my neck!  REALLY?!  o.0  I still didn't change my mind...

At 5 pm, I got my shit & started walking out.  Cindy asks me if I'm going to go save us a booth.  I said no....that I wasn't going.  The look on her face was priceless.  Claire & Maia were all like...OMG, look how sad she looks!  Claire was saying that Cindy was only going cuz I was going.  I'm just like...whatever...waved them off & walked out.  OVER IT, I tell you!  Apparently, Claire wasn't going either...?  Not sure but it looked like she was leaving.

I started on the way home & stopped to get my oil changed.  I'd hit my mileage over the weekend actually.  This guy on my new way home is $2 cheaper than the guy I've been using.  I also knew that my 1st guy had told me last summer I needed a new fuel filter (one that's on it is the original OEM one from '05) BUT he wanted $100 to change it.  So I put it off.  I didn't mention it to this new guy...wanted to see if he'd bring it up.  And he did...lol!  However, he only charged me $29!!  Wow.  And he put new windshield wiper blades on for me.  One of mine was falling apart.  While I was waiting, Cindy was texting me...begging me to come to Chili's cuz she wanted to hang out with me.  We finally got our squabble out in the open.  She apologized.  And I told her...that her snapping at people like this is why she lost Manda & Kelli.  Me...I get pissed/hurt...& I get over it.  You just have to give me time...

I get home & just as I'm finishing bringing the trash can & 2 recycle boxes back up to the house, Mom drives up.  She wants to go to dinner.  Apparently, their dumbass roomie is moving out this weekend...& Bud is blaming her for it!  So they got into this massive argument.  Well, it's not like they don't fight all the time anyway...but yeah...this one was pretty big.  So over dinner, she's telling me that she's going to start looking for a job Monday...& that she might be moving in HERE with me!!  ARGH!!!!  FML.  *sighs*  I hope not...ugh!!  :/

Anyway...so once we get back from dinner & she leaves...I discover Nixon has arrived.  Uh huh.  PMS-ing...THAT'S why Cindy has been able to irk me so bad!!  Granted, she hasn't acted like this for MONTHS. But it happened.  It's over.  It'll take me a day or 2 to really let it go & move on.  And I'm sure she's gonna wanna talk about it some more in the morning.  Ugh.  I just wanna drop it.  Process it & let go of it.

Now my aching body is laying down!!  Long day tomorrow...8:30 am - 7 pm...?  We're testing closing at 7 on Fridays.  Store Karen is coming in the morning & we're going to do some test scanning for the inventory to see how it all actually works.  And so the adventure begins...*laughs*

Crazy...but Good News!

Work was...or seemed...rather nuts today.  For most of the day.  The order that came in was mostly back orders & about 10% of the order was DAMAGED!!  Yeah.  And they'd been doing SO WELL with packing here the last few weeks!  WTF is up with that?!  I simply do not understand why they can do it right for a while & then just arbitrarily fuck it up?!  UGH!!  Sent Robb EIGHT pictures & that wasn't even all of the damage...just the really bad stuff!

Anyway...in the midst of dealing with all of that...I did get good news!  :-)  Todd called.  He'd gone into the system to check my driver's license for me.  The 1st thing he discovered was...that my original FL DL is still VALID!  lol  Til my birthday next year!  ;-)  His advice was to just go online & get a duplicate license.  Some how...some kind of way...NO CLUE...but it had Mom's address for my physical address & Judy's address for my mailing???  No idea.  It even said that it was given up July '08 (when I changed from FL to OK!!)  So he didn't even run the OK license.  He was like...why bother...?!  Your FL one is still good!  lol  So...when I got home, I did just that!  I should have it in a week or so with my CURRENT address!  ;-p  *woot*

Bud just left.  I'm gonna order some dinner & crash soon...what a day!  lol  >.<

1st Day Back...

Went back to work today.  Yay.  *snorts*  Met Maia.  The new girl.  I'll hold my judgment for a little while.  But I wasn't expecting her to be just a BABY!!  haha  She's maybe 20.  Heh.  Oh, well...

Other than that, I spoke to Tom for a bit.  He's wanting me to generalize our inventory.  The dude has lost his mind!  The SOLE reason for getting the inventory system was so we'd KNOW what we had in stock!!  Seriously?!  Whatever.  Guess he'll be useless & we'll just hafta feel our way through this process...

Mini Vacation: Day 4

Up at 10:45 this morning.  By noon, I was outside doing touch ups on the paint job on my bed.  Mom & Bud got here about 1:30.  It took us quite a while to put this thing together & get it maneuvered around so that the ceiling fan wouldn't be hitting it.  By the time we got it set up...we realized something absolutely HORRIBLE.  This freaking bed is a QUEEN size!!  All of my bedding is FULL size!!  ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!  To change everything to Queen to fit the bed would cost more money.  And there's no way to rig it so that it'll work with my Full size mattress & frame.  FML!!  So...I've emailed the people I bought it from.  My next day off, I'll make the bed, take a pic & put it on Craigslist.  *sighs*  I was SO in love with this thing, too!!  :-(

So that was my entire day.  Ugh.  I'm just sick over it...

Back to work tomorrow.  This time off went way too fast...  :/

Mini Vacation: Day 3

Mom texted me at like 1:15 am & asked if I was up.  Yeah.  She was outside!  lol...WTF?!  So I go out there.  She's all KINDS of pissed off!  They had a poker game at their house & Scott...their dumbass roommate, has been starting shit with her since early afternoon.  They ended up really getting into it at the game.  Finally, she went All In, knowing the guy she was up against was gonna beat her...(basically fed him her chips)...& left the house at 11 pm.  She'd just been driving around since then!  She stayed here til 3 am.  Ugh...

I didn't sleep for shit last night!  Was awake every hour or so.  And was dreaming all freaking night!  Nothing interesting, mind you!  lol  But about doing inventory at the store!  Seriously?!  haha  I'm probably just over a week or so from actually starting to scan ISBNs & putting them into Anthology.  I'm well aware of the massive task before us but I think my brain is still trying to fine tune the process.  ;-p  Finally got up at 10:45.

My eye issue...??...uh huh...WELL...I've now transferred it (by constantly rubbing my freaking eyes!) to my top right eyelid!  Fuck me!!  ARGH!!!  It's not near as painful as the left one was but...being on my top eyelid, I can barely open that eye.  *sighs*

By 12:30 pm, I was hauling my bed out to the patio.  It took me a couple of hours to sand it & then less than a couple of hours to paint it.  I ended up having to run to Ace when I was almost through for another can of paint. I was covered in black paint splatter but I was afraid they wouldn't be open tomorrow.  ;-)  So...4 hours out in the sun (I'd gotten to the point of seeing stars cuz my blood sugar dropped from being so dehydrated out there), I was (& still have quite a bit on me) covered in black paint...my fingernails are black...I'm SO Goth!  *giggles*  2 1/2 cans of paint, sunburnt (but not really bad) but the worst is that I'm aching all over...haha!!  I noticed a little later that there are several spots on a few of the bed pieces (this is a full size canopy bed:  headboard, footboard, 4 posters & 4 rails) where the green is showing through.  I'll do touch ups in the morning.  Hopefully Mom will come over & help me put it together finally.  ;-)  I can't wait to see it up!  :D

It was all I could do to get a bath & make dinner.  Been laying down ever since.  lol  Watching movies, struggling to stay awake.  haha

Mini Vacation: Day 2

Slept til 10:30 this morning!  WooHoo!!  Guess I won't mention that I was up til 5 am though...*laughs*

Went up to the store around 1 pm.  The new door is freaking awesome!!  LOL  Got my new key.  We talked about my eye & June's work schedule.  I even worked a little bit...LMAO!  Meh...I can't help it!  ;-p  Hit Wal-Mart & Publix there & then came home.  Manda showed up shortly after I got home so she's the 1st "outsider" to see the house "in progress"...lol!  Mom & Bud were already here when I got here.  Bud finished grouting the living room.  So I can start arranging in there in the next few days, I think!  :D

Manda wants me to go with the fam to the beach tomorrow.  I hate going on weekends as it is, never mind on a HOLIDAY weekend!  ARGH!!  But I'll decide when she calls tomorrow & see how awake I am at that time...lol.

The other night, Katy drug me into this Poly group on FB.  I've been quite enjoying it!!  I've actually already friended 3 of the group members so far.  I've come to find out that being a shithead is simply a human condition!! Unbalanced people simply all act alike...no matter their lifestyle choices.  It is quite common among the Selfish & Entitled to treat others like crap & expect it to not be a big deal.  Not that I'd wish anyone to go through this kind of relationship...but...MAN...I feel sooo relieved hearing others' experiences!! I'm not crazy, I don't ask for the impossible & it is absolutely ESSENTIAL to walk away when someone refuses to communicate...REGARDLESS of how much you care about them.  It is a losing battle...not worth the heartache.  I will be grateful to Katy for bringing me into this realm of knowledge & experience for many years to come!!  ;-)

It Takes More - Jordin Sparks

OH CRAP!!!

So I tried opening a new checking account the other day & got denied, right?  So I just went online to request a report of what could possibly be on my record to cause that.  Umm...yeah...I'm quite a bit freaked out right now!!  After putting in all of my info, the form won't submit cuz it says my driver's license is INVALID!!  WTF?!?!  The only thing that could cause that would be that stupid wreck in WA.  I was in a rental car, State Farm had prematurely cancelled my insurance (& I didn't know that til AFTER the wreck!).  I tried for a freaking YEAR to get ahold of somebody at Enterprise to find out what I needed to do!!  I either sat on hold for an hour+ or I got transferred back & forth between people that would tell me nothing!  OMFG...

I can request my DMV record for $25 from OK.  But 1st, I'm going to see if Todd can run it without rousing any suspicions...*sighs*  REALLY?!  This is NOT something I need to be dealing with!!  :-(  Going to Washington was MOST CERTAINLY my biggest mistake EVER!!!

Mini Vacation: Day 1

Woke up at 8 am this morning...like I needed to go to work or something!  *snorts*  By 10:30, I was at Publix, doing some grocery shopping.  But the sole reason for even going...I ended up NOT getting!!  Cuz I couldn't find it in the store...lol.  Not in the same spot as my regular Publix...& not my other guess either...unless I just couldn't see it.

I REALLY like these!  lol  And I only get them once a month.  It's almost like it's my special little dinner treat!  ;-p  Anything else that I prepare for dinner is just whatever but I actually look forward to pay day so I can get these for dinner.  haha  It's the little things in life, dude!!  :D  I have to go to the store tomorrow to get a new key (our front door got replaced today finally) so unless I go get it, I won't be able to open Tue morning...lol! So I'll stop by my regular Publix & get my treat.  hehehe  Probably going to go see Manda while I'm in town, too.

So I got home from shopping, unloaded my stuff, started the dishwasher & sat down to watch a movie.  Bud came over just before 2, I think.  Mom wasn't too far behind him.  She'd gone to get ant killer.  When they were here yesterday, we'd noticed a handful of ants in my room but couldn't figure out where they're coming from.  Around 8:30 pm last night, they'd totally INFESTED my babies' food bowl...ARGH!!!  I was so mad & grossed out!!  :/  And that's when I saw for myself they were coming from under the baseboards.  Even though they've been SEALED...wow!  By the time I got that mess cleaned up, I dunno if they got ahold of an ant or something...but BOTH of them...Sheba 1st & then Bastian...got sick!  She NEVER gets sick so that caused alarm!  :/  Not puking really but just bile...both of them.  Bizarre.  Grr.  So Mom scattered ant killer all along the base of the house outside & some patches in the yard.  Bud spent his time grouting in the dining area & down the hall.  Just before 4, we went & got pizza from a local shop down the street.  It was pretty good...even though I'm not a fan of Supreme (I have to pick off the bell peppers...lol).  Mom left just before 5.  They have a poker game at their house tonight.  I laid down about 5:15.  If you know anything about my sleep habits, you'll know that me falling asleep while Bud was still making noise, working on tile, was RARE!  lol  I have to have silence to sleep.  But that's just how sleepy I was!  ;-)

Woke up 3 hours later, it's still kinda half-ass storming (that started this afternoon).  It's rained a bit but mostly it's just thundering & lightning.  Kinda odd.  o.0  But...it has definitely jacked up my allergies!  They're kicking my ass at the moment!  Bleh!  My ear is basically back to normal.  My eye...is getting better.  Not near as swollen as last night & essentially doesn't throb & burn anymore.  Yay!  :-)

I'm going to take a bath & watch another movie or 2...*chuckles*

Eye Sty!

EWW!! And actually...it's not as bad as it was...haha

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Mini Vacation!

I woke up at 5:40 am this morning.  lol  That's what I get for going to bed at 10 pm!  ;-p

When I was basically awake, I noticed my left eye was really bugging me.  It'd actually started last night.  Felt like something was in it, etc....so I rubbed it a bit, of course, but really didn't pay much attention to it.  I have bad allergies & rub my eyes almost constantly anyway...it's just a part of life.  lol  Anyway so it's really bothering me so I go look in the mirror.  Under my lower lid is really puffy so I start messing with it & can feel a bump in there.  On accident, while rubbing it, I pulled the lid down enough that I could see...THREE small pus pockets on the inside!  EWW!!!  WTF?!  So of course I had to Google it.  I think it's probably a sty but the ones on the insides of the lids are pretty stubborn & difficult to get rid of...aside from going to a Dr & having him lance it under sterile conditions.  Umm...yeah...no thanks!  ;-p  LOL  So not only is my left ear still fucked up but now my left eye is disgusting!  Really?!  *sighs*

I got up too early & got bored early so I ended up getting to work early (7:45!)  haha  I had to show off my newest ailment to everyone...lol.  Karen told me how to massage my sinuses to try & break up anything that might be in there causing trouble.  Claire had a fit over my eye & told Cindy I needed to go home & rest...LMAO!  Cindy ended up conceding...it was very slow & all 3 of them were there for the day anyway. So before I left at 1 pm, Cindy gave me a $100 bill & told me to take care of my eye.  ;-p  Claire had run home just before then to get antibiotic eye drops to use, too.  I will do the hot compress treatment, too & if it's not better by next Tue, I might go back to Urgent Care...ugh!!

I left & went to the bank to cash my check.  Then I tried to open a checking account there.  They do that Chex Smart thingy...& something popped up on mine.  WTF?!  She called off a name that absolutely doesn't sound familiar at all...& besides, I haven't had any of those kinds of issues in YEARS...so I have no idea!!  She gave me a number to call to find out what it is.  I'll call tomorrow...

Then I went to CVS to get 2 liter Cokes (on sale), some saline solution for my eye in case those pus things pop & some ear ache drops.  Then I went to get gas & air up my front 2 tires (the old ones still)...yeah, I'm gonna have the same issues with these that I had with the others.  *sighs*  Gotta replace them SOON!!  FFS.  lol

Got home & Mom & Bud were here.  Mom tortured the kids for a while by being in the same room with them & petting them...*laughs & snorts*  They're both so ridiculous!  ;-p  She brought a blackberry bush that she's going to plant out back.  I have to tend to it for her & I'll pick them when they're ripe but I don't eat blackberries...lol.  Bud finished the tile in the living room & dining area.  :-)  He's got the 2nd bathroom done (aside from the edges) & down the hall...about to go into one of the other bedrooms.  Slowly it's all coming together.  ;-)  I put the ear drops in & almost immediately my ear felt better.  And it's STILL ok...& that was...over 4 hrs ago!  YAY!  :D

Then the 3 of us went to eat Mexican food.  Yum!  I came home & they went to their house.  Now...I'm going to take a bath & deal with my eye for a bit.  I've got a crap-ton of movies expiring on NetFlix on the 1st & a couple on the 2nd so my vacation is apparently going to consist of watching movies!!  *smirks*  I don't go back to work til Tue...but Cindy will finish the Newsletter in a day or 2 & send it to me to send out.  I just HOPE I don't have the same issues I had with it last month...OMFG!!  That was just brutal!

Rings True...

This was brought to my attention a little while ago...  ;-)  It's EXTREMELY poignant!!

Do not bring people in your life who weigh you down. And trust your instincts ... good relationships feel good. They feel right. They don't hurt. They're not painful. That's not just with somebody you want to marry, but it's with the friends that you choose. It's with the people you surround yourselves with. Who's in your life, and do you respect them, and do they respect you? 

Confused...

I guess I'm still just a little confused by our whiplash-natured relationship...

Tu-Tu-Tuesday!

I knew last night was going to be a late night...JUST because I didn't even get home til 9:30!  Ha!  So, yeah, I went to bed at midnight.  However, I woke up at 1:30 with a massive earache & toothache!  UGH!!  I think it was my ear causing the teeth to hurt...on the same side & all.  Same ear I got the ear plug stuck in, too.  So, of course, my 1st fear was that a piece got stuck in there again...but none of it was missing.  Dunno!  But it hurt all damn day!  Semi-closed up, too...my hearing is muffled & the pain is radiating down my neck.  Not fun...

Anyway, so I'm opening & I leave my house (early even).  The main highway I get on to get from here to there...is backed up way back to where I turn onto it at!  WTF?!  I can see a cop car with flashing lights way ahead.  I'm guessing an accident.  It took me 10 minutes to get 300'!  So I made it to the 1st turn around & thought...hmm...the main street I live off of MUST go somewhere down that way in which I need to go so that I can bypass it, right?!  hahaha  So I go a little ways down &...uhh...NOPE!  It's a dead end!  LOL  However, just before it dead ends there's a street to my left that is familiar to me, it'd at least get a little ways down towards where I need to go.  Well, it would if I had a 4x4 & could get through the foot of sand that is the 1st long bit of road!  OMFG.  LMAO!!  Whatever.  I had GPS on, too, but it kept trying to take me my normal route.  *snorts*  I gave up & went back my normal way & just fought the traffic.  ;-p  Yes, it was an accident...at the intersection of that sand-trap road & my main highway...AHAHAHA!!  Whatever...

So I got to work finally...& only 15 minutes later than my normal time but that meant I had to rush to get open by 9.  Bleh.  I hate rushing!  ;-p  Cindy got there a few minutes after 9.  Was just me & her today.  I spent the 1st part of the morning doing inventory for today's order.  As I was checking in the order that came in today, I got pulled away several times to help her.  About halfway through processing them & putting them out, this girl from Humana came in.  I knew Lori had screwed up her dental insurance somehow...don't really know the details...I tried to stay as far removed from that as I could...lol.  Kelli has had the dental for a long time, too & she'd left a check last week for her payment but apparently Cindy had deleted her from the policy when she went down to hourly so...uh oh...now she's gotta fix that, too...so she just had the girl come in so they could fix all of that.  Next thing I knew, she's telling me to go talk to her cuz...she's putting me on there, too...& she'll pay the monthly Premium as part of my salary!  haha  Cool!  Maybe I'll eventually get my freaking teeth fixed!  ;-p

After that was all taken care of, I told her I wanted to take Friday & Saturday off to make up for the 2 days off I missed over the last 2 weeks...so I'd then have Fri-Mon off...we're closed on Sundays & this Monday for Memorial Day.  :D  YAY!!  I get to rest!  ;-)

She ended up kicking me out at 4:30...said she could handle closing by herself cuz it had slowed down & all.  I wanted to argue with her...but I was hurting, grumpy & miserable...oh, yeah, have I mentioned TIRED?!  haha  She didn't hafta tell me twice...*dies laughing*

I dropped by Manda's on my way home.  She'd ordered 2 graphic novels way back in December for Dan & they came in today.  Along with Nalini Singh's Kiss of Snow.  It's not on sale til the 31st...but it's Manda!  ;-p  She gets it as soon as it comes in regardless of sale date...lol.  I was actually supposed to have dinner with them again tonight...but I just feel so crappy...I wasn't in the mood to hang out.  :/  Manda made the comment that my ear MAY be my sinuses trying to get infected & it's just fucking everything up in its path.  Hmm...that'd make more sense than a random earache...cuz I HAVE had the sinus headache for about a week now.  Bleh...

Got home at 5 & Bud was here, laying some more tile.  He's almost got the living room done.  ;-)

I walked into my room & the 1st thing I saw was several of my books from my bookcase on the floor...as I knelt down to pick them up, I discovered THIS:

Sheba had decided she needed to be on that shelf...NOT my books!  AHAHAHA!!!  FFS...my cats are freaking ridiculous!  ;-p

Bud left at 6. I fixed dinner after he left & started a movie.  Started getting texts from Cindy.  I think she hired some girl.  lol  I dunno...chick came in the store & they talked about employment somehow.  She's young, Stetson student, English Major, very well spoken, has worked at Borders before & Cindy said she got a "hippy" vibe from her & she also has piercings & tattoos...AHAHAHA!!  Said she can start next Tue!  ;-)  I sure hope so...we NEED the help!  Sheesh.  And I mean someone that actually HAS a brain!  ;-p  About 8:30, Mom called & asked if I was awake.  I said yeah.  She said she was gonna drive by...I asked if she was gonna stop...*chuckles*.  I couldn't help it...she left herself open for that!  ;-p  She'd been at Poker so she was nearby.  She was here within 5 minutes actually.  She'd been shopping again!  *snorts*  She got a couple of rugs for the kitchen for in front of the stove & sink & one for the front door outside.  I really like the design on that one!  :-)  It's cool.  lol  How stupid...get excited over a rug.  *snorts*  Whatever...I'm drugged up at this point..leave me alone!  LOL  But she also had something else.  A canopy drape for my bed!!  Black...not lace...but...uhh...what's the word?  Ehh...I dunno...it's a sheer fabric!  ;-p  That'll be AWESOME if I ever get my bed put together...LMAO!  She also got a towel rack for the bathroom door.  Mine doesn't fit my bathroom door very well...but it works fine for the 2nd bathroom.  So the hook is for mine.  She took my dirty laundry with her & finally left a little after 9.

When I got settled back down, I noticed I had a text from Cindy.  LOL...I get a surprise day off tomorrow!!  :D  Kelli was scheduled for tomorrow.  She works Wednesdays so Cindy can get a day off.  Well, Cindy was planning on working.  And, actually, she'd told me to come in late...so I could sleep in some.  Kelli & I had gone back & forth a bit in text...I was trying to talk her out of going in tomorrow since she really didn't need to.  She finally said she'd text Cindy.  Well, apparently she & Cindy decided since Kelli was ok to come in tomorrow...I could just relax!  ;-p  Little co-conspirators...those 2!  haha  Anyway...but again...she didn't hafta tell me twice!  ;-p  But I DO find it funny...that in order for me to get a day off, Cindy brings in the ENTIRE crew to help her!  AHAHAHA  She called Lori, Claire & Savannah in, too, for tomorrow (they all 3 were scheduled off).  It's just funny...  ;-p

Manic...Saturday?! o.0

I dunno...I kept thinking today was Saturday.  lol  *shrugs*  I haven't had a day off in...forever...so the days are just running amok!  ;-p

I opened.  Cindy got there about 8:45.  I got her filled in on everything she needed to look at/do/take care of.  I was supposed to be at Karen's at 9:15 (& she actually called to check on me...lol) but I didn't get there til 9:30 (cuz of settling Cindy into a workable groove with her Frankenstein-esque peg leg...lol.  It's not REALLY a peg leg but she can't bend it at all so...you get the idea!  ;-p

Karen & I watched several of the training videos.  I must say...they were super cheesy.  They're webinars recorded of a woman going through stills on a Power Point type thing (though they were extremely amateurish--one of them...her dog was barking in the background while she talked!)  Seriously?!  lol  BUT...they did point a couple of facets out to us.  One was how to create the departments, etc before starting to input inventory.  The 2nd was a question raised about our hook up to Ingram.  So it was worth it.  AND...her 2 adorable kitties were my 2 best friends most of the time I was there!  ;-)

I got back to work at 12:15.  I created a rough-draft semblance of a plan-o-gram for our departments & stuff & shot off an email about the Ingram issue.  I also got an email back from Tom telling me the missing codecs to run the videos at the store & installed it on the 2 main computers.  The laptop still won't run them.  No idea!!  Grr!!  ;-p  I haven't tried mine yet.  The rest of the day was spent taking care of customers, doing inventory for tomorrow's order, etc.  I wasn't expecting Cindy to stay all day!  But she, Claire & I closed.

Cindy has her follow-up dr appointment at 8:45 tomorrow morning & then she'll come to work.  It'll just be me & her (unless Karen shows up).  Kelli might come in during the afternoon so I can leave early.  Cindy can't close by herself yet.  She can't move around enough to bring the carts in from outside & do all the walking to turn off lights & a/c in all the rooms.

After work, I went to Manda's for dinner.  She made stuffed pork tenderloin, asparagus gratin & red potatoes.  :-)  I was really enjoying the pork til I bit down on something crunchy (gristle or bone--no idea) but  I had to force myself to finish it after that.  lol  I have a MASSIVE gag reflex when it comes to meat & those 2 issues!  ;-p  Me, her & Dan sat out on the patio for a while after dinner, just shooting the shit.  Dan made a comment that he really likes it when I come over.  lol  I'm his favorite friend of Amanda's...hahahahahaha!  And he misses me when I don't come around often enough!  *snickers*  I thought it was CUTE!  ;-)

But I hafta say...my...DUH...moment of the evening was THIS:  


Saw it on FB by a girl I used to be really good friends with many eons ago.  She STILL lives in the podunk, 1-horse, never was anything-never will be anything, black hole/abyss, backwards, redneck, Bible-Thumping Southern Arkansas town I grew up in.  This is her 16 year old son & his birthday present truck.  CAN YOU SAY REDNECK MUCH?!?!  OMFG...are you kidding me?!  Bad enough that truck doesn't just SCREAM redneck...but for a 16 year old?!  Just...wow...lol!!  I can't even begin to tell you how GLAD I am that I was able to escape that place!  I'd seriously slit my wrists if I ever had to live there again...

Yeah, I blacked his face out.  After all, it's not MY picture to post...& he IS only 16!  Ugh...but still...it totally made me cringe...so I HAD to share!  *smirks*

Flying Kitteh!

Instead of a flying monkey...I have a flying kitty. Apparently! Lol!

Yes, Sebastian is on TOP of the closet doors...& I have NO idea how he got up there! Hahahaha

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A Working Sunday...Sorta

Woke up at 8 am.  Unloaded the dishwasher.  Messed around on FB.  Headed up to the store to meet with Karen.  Well, actually, IHOP...across the street but it was PACKED!  So I parked in our parking lot & texted her.  We agreed to meet downtown.  I then texted Cindy.  I didn't realize she was meeting with us, too.  lol  As I was leaving the store, she passed me!  ;-p  By the time I got to Firehouse, she was already there & had hobbled down the sidewalk a bit...& Karen pulled in behind me...haha!  We walked down to The Brickhouse to eat.  And talk.  Mostly about Anthology but Cindy & I veered off into talking about store business & Claire.  Heh.  The highlight of lunch was when a bee/wasp/winged stingy critter flew down the front of her shirt into her bra & she NEARLY totally exposed herself trying to get it out!  ROFL!!  I'm sure the old man sitting across from us quite enjoyed that!  ;-p  Karen & I just laughed.  hehehe

Cindy headed home & Karen & I went to the store.  The whole purpose was to see if we could play the training videos on her laptop since we can't play them on any of the store computers.  Well, we couldn't get her laptop hooked up to the wireless internet.  Grr.  lol  So we were only there for like an hour.  Had 3 or 4 phone calls (that I didn't answer) & 2 people stopped & tried to get in.  lol  Sorry about their luck!  *snorts*

Bud showed up here at the house around 2:30 to cut some more tile.  I read a little & started a movie.  He left at 5.

I'll open tomorrow.  Cindy will be there at 9.  She is to plant her ass up at the registers & NOT walk around! Claire will be there at 10.  I'm going to Karen's house at 9:15 to watch some of these videos.  I tried watching them on my laptop but it just buffers...won't actually play.  *sighs*  I sent an email to our Rep to see if he has any suggestions for us.  Only being able to watch them at Karen's house is NOT feasible!  lol  I'll go back to the store around noon, I imagine, & then close.

I've been doing a lot of thinking the last few days.  I think...really...the dream I had the other night is what triggered it all.  I was having the "nightmares" because I was paranoid & utterly terrified of a "possible" situation.  I was terrified because...me, MYSELF...I was unsure of how I'd react...if the situation were to actually present itself.  I was terrified of giving in, falling for the lines, forgiving her, & letting her back into my world, only to further torture me.  I was...AM...TERRIFIED of that possibility!  Since January...probably even started in late November...& built itself up in December...but DEFINITELY showed itself starting in January...I've been depressed, attempting to numb myself from the pain, loneliness, fear, stress...of her refusing to listen or talk to me.  So much so that...more than my "usual"...I've opted to smoke to calm my nerves...I've wanted to drink to float above & beyond what I was feeling on the inside...I've made conscious efforts to have "coffee" as much as possible to put a haze over the emotions & suffocate them...but the biggest & most I've done is to eat.  Eat & eat & eat!  Like...all the time!  Every spare moment, I'd find something to munch on.  And I realized that I was doing this way back in January.  But as long as I could concentrate on nibbling on something...I wasn't thinking about the current situation.  And that's the one thing that has gotten to me the most.  I've gained 20+ pounds since January!  I'm at a weight I haven't been at for...10 years?  And it's that "magic" number that usually shocks me into doing something about it.  lol  Anyway...the dream the other night proved to me that I DO know who I am, what I want/don't want, that I AM strong enough to do the right thing, that she has ZERO control over me anymore...but, most of all, it made me realize that I'm no longer depressed & trying to mask it.  Of course, I still think about it.  I probably will for years to come.  I'll never forget how she made me feel.  I'll never forget how deeply I cared about her.  I'll never forget how hopeless I felt every time she assumed something & refused to speak to me about it.  And I realized that I'm no longer feeling the need to prove anything to her.  I don't give a flying fuck if she EVER realizes I didn't say the things she thought I did.  Let her think whatever.  She's no longer important to me...in ANY aspect.  She helped create a big part of who I am today...she'll be the Human Stain in my life that is the guardian to how I interact with people from here on out...she's the Warning Sign for everybody else.  I will never trust another human being the way I trusted her & that's really pretty sad but it is what it is.  But she's also the one who taught me how to Respect MYSELF.  And because of that...the diet resumes tomorrow & the rest of the self-loathing & destructive acts will go back to my normal range.  I don't hate myself anymore cuz of her...I have no need to self-destruct...lol.

My life is good the way it is becoming.  WITHOUT her a part of it.  I'm actually pretty proud of how it looks so far!  ;-)  It feels uber NICE!!

Because...

You forget because it's not important to you.  You ignore because you don't care.  And you won't do anything about it because you know it'll always be there...

Locked Out...

You lock the door on me...I'll lock the door on you.  Took me a while to learn that...but I have...finally.

The World Didn't End!

I thought I was over the nightmares (since it's been 3 or 4 days since I've had one) but apparently not.  Had another one last night.  Though...this one turned out differently.  Positively.  So...really...I can't even call that one a nightmare cuz it was refreshing...not tormenting!  ;-p

So I didn't exactly sleep in as planned!  ;-p  I was up at 8 am.  I slept over 8 hours but...geez...I felt JUST as worn out when I got up as I did when I went to bed!  :/  Ugh.  I simply cannot get any down time.  I'm thinking when Cindy is back to 100%, I'm just gonna take 3 or 4 days & chill out.  Let her & Claire figure shit out on their own!  lol  I ate the last of Mom's chocolate cake for breakfast...in celebration of The Rapture today!  ;-p  So...yeah...I got to work at 10:15...lol.  Karen was there all day but she mostly worked on the Anthology stuff.  We'd originally kinda planned to go out to Cindy's tomorrow to watch some of the training videos together.  But they aren't something we can download & save...& Cindy has dial-up, out there in the boonies...& it can't handle running those videos!  So we scratched that idea.  When she's back & we're all 3 free, we'll do it there at the store.  Savannah came in around 4 & Kelli left.  Kelli had been planning on us doing a Girl's Night Out tonight but her lunch from Wendy's made her sick so that got cancelled, too.  Just after I kicked Savannah out at 6 (cuz she wouldn't stop chattering...lol!), a girl we'd special ordered a book for showed up.  I'd already balanced the credit card terminal & the register but she had exact change in cash so rather than get stuck with the book (cuz she's moved out of the area), I'll ring it up on Monday.  Sheesh.  lol

Unfortunately...The Rapture didn't take place today & we're all still here...UGH!  *snorts*  I was looking forward to some of the world's most annoying people to disappear, dammit!!  *dies laughing*

Got home, made dinner, watched a movie, started the dishwasher, took a bath...now I'm gonna read a bit before sleep.  Meeting Karen at IHOP at 11 tomorrow & then we're gonna go to the store & put our heads together (in PEACE) on this Anthology stuff.  I think Cindy may show up there.  She said she has to come to town to get a new leg brace.  And...she's apparently going to be there for a bit on Monday cuz Mike & his little buddy are gonna be there, fixing the fence out back.  I know she's stir-crazy but I think it's still too soon! *sighs*  But...she's stubborn...*shrugs*

Hit the Wall!

Couldn't get to sleep last night.  Body & mind were both still trying to go!  Ugh.  I'm over-tired.  Exhausted.  Running on empty.  lol  I finally fell asleep around 2 am, after starting Black Dust Mambo by Adrian Phoenix that Manda has been bugging me to read.  ;-p  I got to Chapter 8!  lol

Opened this morning.  Karen came in around 9 but she wasn't really there to work.  She was on her way out to Cindy's house.  They are going to move sometime this summer...somewhere closer to where her hubby works...so he can cut his commute down.  And since she's just about finished with the Kids section, she wants to help me take on Anthology as a project.  Just the part about figuring out how to effectively input our inventory.  If she wants to help, I'm all for it!  I simply DO NOT have the time that is needed to devote to it.  Ack.  :/  I can't even find time to check email...never mind commit the kind of time & concentration this system is taking to implement!  :/

Lori & Claire came in at 10-ish.  It was pretty dead for the most part so Claire was just putting flats away.  UPS got there with our order just after noon.  I called Kelli.  She got herself some lunch & came on over.  I then went & checked in the 3 boxes for the order.  It was pretty straightforward so it didn't take long.  I then brought it all out to Kelli & Claire to pencil, sticker & put away.  lol  I then started on the magazines.  About halfway through doing them...I hit my wall!  I was the Walking Dead.  Zombie personified.  At 4:15, I'd gotten everything put out, the old ones stripped & decided I was gonna go.  Besides...I still had to stop at the bank before going home!  Haven't been able to go all week!!  hahaha  Yeah, the teller knows us...so when I walked in...she was curious.  Told her about Cindy's knee surgery & that being down a person, I simply never could escape to come in.  ;-p

Finally got home.  Bud was here, working on the tile in the living room some more.  He also had the futon in the truck.  I came in my room & just laid down.  I didn't actually go to sleep...I just kinda drifted in & out of consciousness.   He was making too much noise, cutting tile, for me to actually sleep.  lol  Mom got here a little after 6.  They were going to Poker tonight (of course!)

Made some dinner after they left & started a movie.  After dinner, took a bath.  Now I'm gonna finish the movie & possibly read some more before sleep.  I'm gonna go in late tomorrow, too.  Try to sleep in like I did yesterday...  ;-)

Benjamin Button Wisdom...

It has no time limit.  You can start whenever you want.  You change or stay the same.  There are no rules to this thing.  We can make the best of it or the worst of it.  I hope you make the best of it.  I hope you see things that startle you.  I hope you feel things you never felt before.  I hope you meet people with a different point of view.  I hope you live a life you're proud of.  And if you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.

  ~The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

Chaotic Partial Day...

I set no alarm for this morning!  :D  1st woke up at 8 am to pee but went back to sleep til 10:30...lol.  Got to work at noon.  This was previously planned, FYI.  haha   The worst part is...that Kelli was whining before I even got there!  *snorts*  I can work by myself or be "in charge" of the minions...but she can't?!  SERIOUSLY?!  ROFL...*rolls eyes*...gimme a freaking break!  ;-p

Kelli left at 2-ish pm to take John to the airport.  Karen left about 2:30.  I still had Claire & Lori.  And...I dunno why...but the day seemed really...chaotic!  o.0  Kelli walked me through doing the books for the last 3 days & making a deposit before she left (will take that tomorrow since I couldn't leave just Claire & Lori there...LMAO!)  After that, I spent the rest of the day doing inventory to create tomorrow's order.  Argh!  That was rough...lots of stuff...but, again, I'm only reordering what we sold today & yesterday & what we've discovered we don't have in stock that we should have.  Wow.  lol

I talked to Cindy about midday.  She finally got a bath today...lol!  I had to pick on her about that, of course!  ;-p

Just before closing, I realized why I'm so freaking tired.  I haven't really had a day off this entire month!  Except last Sunday...& I got bored halfway through the day & couldn't even nap!  Bleh.  lol

Grabbed dinner on the way home.  Ate while I did FB.  Did kitty litter & took a bath.  Attempted a movie & unpacked a couple of boxes of my books & put them in my bookcase.  Ditched the movie about 30 minutes into it.  haha  I think it's bedtime now.  Opening tomorrow but if the order comes in early enough, I'm gonna try to get out of there before 4:30!  Cross your fingers that UPS comes before noon!  ;-)

Book Club Day...

I opened this morning.  No Karen, Claire or Lori scheduled for today.  It was basically dead...til just after 11.  Kelli came in at noon & brought lunch (KFC).  We got a little hectic from there on out.

Ali came to the store & I gave her the grand tour.  Manda met us at the store at 6.  We 3 then went to Publix to pick up goodies for Book Club & then headed over to Karen's.  Was a light night...had fruits, veggies & daiquiris.  Then we played a couple of games of Left-Right-Center.  Ali won the 1st game!  :-)  I think she liked it pretty well & everyone liked her.  Amanda left after the 1st game but texted me soon after...saying Ali was cool!!  hahaha  :D  Karen gave her the 1st 3 books in Nalini Singh's Psy-Changeling series,  to start getting her ready for the next one that's coming out the end of this month...lol.  She'll have 3 or 4 more to go before she gets up to that one though.  ;-p

Got home at 9 pm, took a bath & had a piece of cake.  Mom had left a chocolate cake here yesterday but I didn't know anything about it til this morning...when she asked me if I'd seen it...LMAO.  Then I watched the 1st part of The Starter Wife mini-series.

Bud has got the living room tiled now (except the edges).  :-)

Now I'm headed to bed in my comfy cloud...*giggles*.  Working tomorrow but I'm just gonna go in whenever I get there.  NOT setting the alarm!  :D

New Addition...

Work was freaking RIDICULOUS!  lol  Kelli opened.  Karen was there at 9.  I got there at 10.  When I walked in, Kelli immediately told me she'd already had a DAY.  We continued to have that DAY, too!  Neither one of us stopped...at all.  She helped me process the order & get it put out (mostly) before she had to leave at 2:30.  Normally, neither one of us would leave someone "in the lurch"...meaning, leaving while the store was packed.  But she had no choice...had to leave to take Savannah to Orlando.  Karen left shortly after she did.  It was then just me.  I only had one person to be an ass about me being the only one there.  Most people are generally ok about waiting their turn.  Claire came in at 4.  I was still hopping.  lol  She called Mike to check on Cindy.  They were just then leaving to go home---so, yes, she did have trouble coming out of the anesthesia (like she said she usually does).  And she was actually back asleep, riding in the car.  Claire told him to have her call us tomorrow to check in.  I did inventory til close.  Tomorrow's order is gonna be big, too.  But I'm basically only ordering in what I've sold...lol...*shrugs*.

Around 5, Ali texted.  Ali...originally Erin from Craigslist, that I was talking to about being my roomie...lol.  Erin was her fake Craigslist name...LOL!  ;-p  She found a better place to stay (not that she could've moved in here anyway!).  She got into town yesterday finally.  She wanted to meet up for dinner.  Neither one of us know this area but I knew where she was & I knew Olive Garden was near there...if nothing else...lol.  So we met there!  :-)  Dinner was yum...it's been many, many years since I've eaten at Olive Garden.  haha  She's gonna come to the store tomorrow when she gets off work & go to Book Club with me.  YAY...I've got a new friend in my midst!!  :D  hehehehe

I got home to find Mom has been busy today.  ;-p  My bed frame is done & I now have an actual bed!  LOL  Not just a matress on the floor...*snorts*.  PLUS...my feather pillowtop came in & she put that on, too.  OMG!!!  It's soooooo SOFTTTTTTT!!!  hahaha  I'm NEVER gonna wanna get outta bed!  :D  She also brought a 3 drawer chest & my laundry that she'd washed.  lol  So I unloaded the dishwasher from last night, then hung up laundry, unpacked folded clothes that go into the chest...finally took a bath!  HA...I'm beat!  ;-)  Ready for night night on my feather bed...*giggles*  I won't be up much longer...I'm pretty sure of it.  :-)

Bit of TRUTH for Sara...

"All things are subject to interpretation; whichever 


interpretation prevails at a given time is a function

of POWER...and not the TRUTH."




~Friedrich Nietzsche

Bored?!

It's been...literally...WEEKS...since I've had an actual day OFF, with nothing pressing to do!  lol  By myself.  And I freaking got BORED?!  LMAO!  WTF?!  It's like...I've forgotten how to just entertain myself & veg out. lol

Woke up at 9.  Did FB.  Then kitty litter (FYI...I think this tile & kitty litter are gonna make me crazy...lol).  Then I organized my closet (mostly--still need a chest of drawers).  Then I unpacked & placed the rest of the stuff that I possibly could.  That didn't really take long either since there isn't a whole lot left that I can do yet.

I watched a movie Claire & Cindy insisted that I needed to see...Fandango...from 1985...lol.  Whatever.  It was ok.  Not as great as they made it out to be.  ;-p  By 3 pm, I was so sleepy & bored out of my skull.  Tried to take a nap.  That didn't exactly work so I was back up at 3:45.

Dinner & then watched Weeds the rest of the evening.  Talked to Mama for a bit on the phone.  Now I'm just idling til I get sleepy enough that I think I'll fall asleep.  haha

I would've never guessed that I'd freaking get bored...GEEZ!  *snorts & laughs*  Soooo retarded!!  ;-p

TIREsome...

I got the store opened.  Had Karen clear off the table for Dr Gaffney.  Set up the water bottles, cookies, napkins & coffee station.  Did some inventory.  By the time Kelli & Savannah got there, we really started hopping.  Was kinda bizarre...right after Kelli came in, Karen decided we had enough coverage & she'd already put away her box of books & there wasn't really much else for her to do so she decided she'd just take off.  Karen & Kelli had a bit of a run in when Karen 1st started.  Kelli & I both got the vibe that she got offended in some way or didn't want to be there cuz of Kelli but we can't figure out WHY!  o.0  Dunno.  Find out Monday, I guess.   Dr Gaffney got there just before 11 & got herself all set up.  We had quite a bit of traffic!  AMAZING since there was also some sort of festival going on downtown...lol.  I'm almost wondering if it didn't start til this afternoon cuz around 2 pm, it just died.  haha  Around 11:30, I went to Wal-Mart for them to change my 2 front tires.  The guy & girl that were both checking me in confirmed that my tire was indeed CUT.  Wow.  I texted Cindy & told her that.  She still wants me to file a police report.  I don't want to.  I still have my OK license & if I make a police report, they'll want my license & then I'll get fined (or whatever) for not changing to FL license within 10 days...so NO THANKS!!  lol  Anyway, Todd is aware of the situation & he's already set up a patrol.  It's not like they'd catch whoever did it anyway!  What's the point?!  Savannah came up & picked me up after I dropped my car off.  I've never ridden with a teen driver before...ROFL!  Dude...that's some scary shit right there!!!  AHAHAHAHA!!!

I texted Mom to come get me whenever after 2:30.  She showed up a bit later & I left at 3:30.  We went to Wal-Mart. Roamed around for a while, of course...lol.  It started storming just after we got inside.  Finally, we went & picked up my car & left.  She followed me to Subway & then home via the truck route (she was unaware of that little trick to bypass downtown...haha!!)  We ate & the 2 of them left at 6 to go to a poker game.

By 6:30, I was half asleep so I ended up taking a little power nap til 8.  I'm up but I can't guarantee that I'm AWAKE!  ;-p  I should really do some work & stuff in here...but I really just don't wanna!  *snorts*  I'm exhausted & next week is gonna be a BITCH!  I deserve some down time!  ;-)  Think I'll just watch the remaining disc I have of the last episodes of Season 2 of True Blood & then...who knows?!  Maybe just go to sleep early!  :D

A FLAT Day!

Woke up to an email from Mom this morning that she'd found one of her kitties, Tiger, dead on the screened in patio.  :-(  That pretty much set the tone for it being a suck-ass day...

Work itself was ok.  UPS came late (1 pm) but luckily it was a semi-small order (2 boxes) with no screw ups & only 1 box of magazines.  I had it all done by 4:30.  In the middle of doing it, Mom texted that the parts we were missing for my bed came in & she suggested dinner at IHOP & then putting the bed together.  I wasn't really feeling well (headache...sinuses & that was making my teeth hurt--there's a storm brewing somewhere nearby!) so I said I could reschedule with Stacy (was supposed to be going over there for dinner).  I really only offered cuz I got the impression she was still upset over Tiger & just wanted company.  But she said she was just gonna stay home.  They were supposed to have poker tonight anyway.  Bud was going but she didn't want to.

At 2, I couldn't stand the toothache anymore so I ran to the health food store to get clove oil since mine was at home & that's no longer just 5 minutes away...lol.  I was already feeling better by the time I got back to the store.

Cindy left at 5.  We'd decided that we'd try to close early if nobody was in the store.  Well, instead, we got inundated with people.  Ain't that the way??  lol  So we got out of there at 6.  I sat in the car for a minute & Claire & Lori left.  When I went to back out, I immediately knew I had a FLAT TIRE!!  Yes...the SAME stupid one from a few months ago!  FML!!  I called Stacy to tell her I wasn't gonna make it tonight after all.  :/  Then I called Mom.  My train of thought on even calling her at all...was if Bud was still at my house, he was closer & could come get me & take me home.  My immediate plan was to leave the car at the store & then she could bring me to work tomorrow & I'd call around & get someone to fix the damn thing.  Finally get a new tire like I should've done the last time.  Bud didn't answer his phone so she called me back...all mad & said she'd be there soon.  *sighs*  Why is she getting mad at ME?!  I didn't fucken DO anything!  Fuck!  Whatever.  So she gets there at 7.  Had stopped wherever & got Fix-A-Flat.  It wasn't doing a damn thing.  So she's all mad & nasty & ordering me to go inside & find out which tire places near there are still open, etc.  Thinking I need to try to DRIVE the car somewhere nearby, if possible.  Are you fucken insane?!  WHY would I purposefully drive on the rim & fuck even MORE shit up?!  REALLY?!  Whatever.  I went in the store, turned on the comp..everything near was closed already.  Except one that closed at 9.  Then she's all snotty & shit, asking me where Amanda was.  Umm...in Washington DC!  She's all like...I thought you were having dinner with her tonight??  No...Stacy!  Ok, where's Stacy?!  Down the street.  She has COMPANY!  HELLO?!  So then what about Kelli's husband??  ARGH.  Yeah...see...I would've called him 1st!  But stupid me, thought I could just easily get taken home tonight & brought to work tomorrow so I could handle the situation during business hours...when I could actually get something done!  *SIGHS*  Plus, it was thundering & lighting & starting to drizzle.  I'm pissed at this point.  I just want her to leave.  I can handle this shit on my own.  So I'm trying to just get her to leave.  And she's bitching about going to the poker game after all but 1st game has already started & she can't get in til 2nd game...& doesn't want to just sit there & wait for the 2nd game.  I called Kelli.  She & John showed up a few minutes later.  He put the donut on for me.  The tire has this...I dunno...flap that's just blown out on the inside.  No clue.  John said it looked like it was CUT.  WTF?!  I'll ask the guy tomorrow that fixes it.  *shrugs*  Kelli said that tomorrow when Savannah gets there, she can follow me to Wal-Mart, I can drop the car off, Sava can bring me back to work & take me to pick it up when it's ready.  Cool!  At least that part is worked out.  Wouldn't you know?!  The donut was LOW on air!  FML TWICE!!  It is now 8 pm btw.  Mom suggested walking next door to IHOP after all.  So we do.  Sitting there for 10 minutes, nobody has taken our order yet so she gets all pissy about that & we end up walking out.  She said she'd come get me tomorrow at 4:30 & we could pick up my car so I don't have to pay for the tires.  She can put them on her credit card.  Whatever.  I just want her away from me at this point.  Told Cindy John thought my tire was cut.  She wants me to file a police report & is gonna have Todd set up a patrol.  Good gawd.  lol.  I told her I'd ask the tire guy if he thought it was cut or not before I do anything!  ;-p

I went to Gate & aired up the donut.  I've never driven on a donut before but you can definitely tell the difference.  It kinda had me freaked out.  lol.  I had to stop at Publix on the way home, too.  Needed to get bottled water, cookies & coffee creamer for the book signing event being held at the store tomorrow.  Ugh.

I FINALLY got home just after 9 pm!  :/  Immediately took a bath while making some dinner.  Now I'm gonna finish up this movie I started & hope I fall asleep soon.  :/  It's already 12:15 am...*sighs*

The Great Escape!

At 4 am, Sheba decided she wanted to be lovey dovey & play, etc. When I finally woke up, I then had to pee. I knew my toilet in my bathroom was down finally...but he's attempted it 4x already & I'd gotten no news that it was functional yet. So I automatically went to the 2nd bathroom. Sheba snuck out when I opened the door. By the time I got the hall light on, she panicked & took off running! UGH!! So I ran after her & that's when I discovered the garage door was open! FML!!! There was NO way for me to find her in there. It's packed FULL of crap!! *sighs*

So after 45 minutes of trying to find her, I gave up & got dressed. Got gas & went to the apt. The PLAN was to start packing/cleaning some til I had to go to work. That didn't last long. By 7 am I was taking a power nap. Lol.

Opened the store & Cindy got there about 9:30. I left at 9:45. Went back to the apt & busted my ass til 1 pm! But I'm finally DONE there! ;). Gave Judy her key back.

Got home & got the car unpacked. Mom & Bud were here. After a bit, she decided she wanted to go shopping. Gawd!! Lol. I'm so totally shopped out! *snorts* But we did get some more cute stuff! :p. Plus she was showing me how to get around town here. Haha. Not that I really remember but enough that I can go out on my own & figure it out fairly easily. ;)

We got some dinner. She then started cleaning some of the crap in the garage in hopes we could find Sheba. It worked! So she's back in the bedroom with me & Bastian now. ;). I got my Wireless hooked up finally so...YAY...my phone works again!! :D. Bud finished laying the tile in the dining area mostly (except for the edges). They finally left at 7:15. I put a load of dishes in the dishwasher to do a test run. It works!! :). Then I outfitted my bathroom mostly (except for the shower curtains). I have the curved shower rod & it has to be bolted into the walls so it's not just something I can pop up there. :/. Then I took a bath & am getting ready for a movie.

Stacy just called. Invited me over tomorrow night. Mark & his new boyfriend are gonna be there too. :). I miss seeing Mark! He's so freaking cute!! ;). I just absolutely adore my gay boys!! :D

Ok movie time before I just decide to go to sleep instead! :p
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Good Ending!

Cindy was at work for a while.  She opened.  I went in at 10 (9:45...lol).  At 12:30, she & Lori went to a lady's house to buy books.  Claire had come in to be there while nobody else would be.  Lori & Cindy got back around 2:30 & then Cindy left at 3 (since it was actually supposed to be her day off today!).

After work, me, Cindy, Claire & Book Club Karen all met at Chili's & had appetizers, drinks & chatter.  It was actually quite fun...& yes, I'm still buzzing!  ;-p

Now it's bath time & (hopefully) soon...bedtime.  The kids were in the carrier in their room when I got home tonight.  :-(  I've brought them in my room already & they're out & about now.

I'm off tomorrow but I'm going in to open.  Cindy has an early dentist appointment.  I'll leave whenever she gets there.  Then I'll go to the apartment to finish packing my old desktop computer, my remaining clothes & then clean.  Then I'll TOTALLY be out of there!  ;-)

Kitchen Works!

Today at work was pretty quiet, in general.  But the day seemed to just DRAG!  lol  However, we DID have a bit of excitement!  About mid-day, we noticed 4 cops in our parking lot, taking this little scrawny guy into custody.  We had no clue what was going on.  About halfway through the chaos, I got a call from a lady at a business just up the street from us.  Said she was passing by & saw the commotion.  Proceeded to tell me that guy had come in her business about an hour before.  She was busy with customers but said he'd wanted to fill out a job application.  Something about him gave her the creeps...said her gut was telling her he wanted to rob her.  She put him off long enough that he finally just left.  About an hour after everyone dispersed from our premises, Cindy called Enterprise back.  She'd talked to them this morning about getting a rental car while her car is being fixed.  They'd been supposed to call her back within the hour.  Enterprise is just up the street from us, too.  She gets a call back a little while later...& the whole day just kinda fell into place!  The girl she was talking to this morning was in the office by herself (why she was gonna hafta call Cindy back about locating a vehicle for her).  This scrawny guy had gone in there & attempted to rob her!  There was no cash on the premises so he beat her up a bit & took her purse!  The girl that called me earlier...to tell me about him being in her place...she's right NEXT DOOR to Enterprise!!  He was just basically making his way down the Blvd, hitting up businesses.  o.0  In all of the chaos, the girl had forgotten to tell anyone about Cindy's needs...therefore, no one even knew to call her back!  lol  HOLY CRAP!!  Sheesh...

Anyway...I left at 4:30, grabbed some dinner & headed HOME!  :-)  Got here & Mom & Bud were still here.  The kids are still in the carrier.  They haven't eaten or anything.  Won't come out.  :-(  BUT...my kitchen is now functional!!  YAY!!  :-)  I can get more of a regular "routine" going now.  ;-)

NOW...it's wayyyy past bath time!!  Then a movie, I guess.  I wanna go to sleep sooo bad...lol!  ;-p

Noises Everywhere!

There are foreign noises EVERYWHERE!! Lol. I hafta use my ear plugs. :p. I just won't make them as small as I did last night...haha!

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Monday from Hell: Part 2

Hmm...ok...where did I leave off?  Oh, yeah...packed up my clothes & random pieces of whatever, shoes & then sat there for a minute.  Got up & decided to go back to Urgent Care...it's now 2:30 pm.

Get there & wait.  And wait some more.  Get called back, tell my story of my ear plug.  Woman thinks I'm crazy but she uses the little scope thingy & says she can see it way down in my ear canal.  Doc comes in.  Repeat ear plug story.  He looks with the scope thingy...but he doesn't believe me that it's an ear plug.  He says it looks like plastic.  Umm...yes, dude...it's silicone!  A soft, rubbery, pliable gooey substance.  At this point, I'm wishing I'd brought the damn package with me like I'd planned on doing but forgot.  Ugh.  So he pokes with long scissor-kinda thingys.  Only gets slivers to come out...like I was getting myself...& what Cindy was getting.  So Doc calls in assistant...to hold my ear.  Well, he still can't get it so he decides he'll flush it.  Of course, I tense up a little now cuz the last time I got that flush...I had an ear infection & I damn near wanted to kill that man for the agony he put me through!  LOL  But this one wasn't bad at all...just a tad bit of pressure.  2 goes at it & he got it to come loose & he grabbed it.  YAY!  So an hour, several disbelieving people, 1/8" piece of silicone & $134 later...I left Urgent Care.  Ugh!!

I had another hour to kill so I went & roamed about in Big Lots.  Then went back to work.  Cindy left at 5 finally cuz Mike was late in picking her up (of course!)  Claire & I shut down at 5:30!  Nobody was there or had been there since before Cindy left.  And I had shit I needed to do!  LOL

I get home & pack the car with all the crap I'd packed earlier.  Gather up trash & recycling & take it out to the curb.  It's 7 pm now & STLL no sign of Sheba at all!  ARGH!  So I give up & go get some dinner.  Come back, eat & watch Weeds.  Still no Sheba at 8:30.  I'm fully aggravated by this point & exhausted.  FINALLY, she comes out at 9:15 pm!  I grab her, stick her in the carrier.  Not so bad.  Then I grab Bastian & as I'm trying to get him in the carrier, she pushes her way out & I lose BOTH of them!  Crap!!  LOL  They both go under the bed.  I finally get ahold of her again & put her in the carrier.  Go back & get him & put him in the carrier.  Yay...Victory...FINALLY!  I grab my laptop, some bottles of water & my Coke & them & GO!!  haha  We got here a few minutes after 10 pm.  Can I call it or what?!  ;-p  *smirks*

So I get their room set up for them.  Neither of them want to come OUT of the carrier now.  Seriously?!  LMAO!!  They don't like me much atm.  :/  Oh, well.  They'll get used to it soon enough.  But I'm going to try to keep them barricaded in their room most of the time, til the floors get done anyway.  I don't want them loose in here with all this crap all over the place!

Anyway, so then I hardwired my laptop to the modem!  It's 11 pm...I'm sooo NOT messing with setting up Wireless right now!  *snorts*  Then I went took a long, hot soak in the tub!  :D  Do you have any idea how long it's been since I've gotten to take a bath (instead of a shower)?!  Umm...Nov '09!  You don't realize how much you can miss something til you don't have the opportunity to have it anymore!  ;-)  Drug myself out of the tub & made up my bed (half-assed anyway--after all, it's just a mattress on the floor--no need to get fancy!  LOL) & it's now 12:45 am!!  I need to sleep.  It's been a terribly fucken LOOOONG day!!  ;-p  And it's finally OVER.  And I am happy.  In my new home.  With real a/c.  And pretty floors (some of it anyway) & QUIET (no cars racing up & down the street...skidding at the stop sign that they don't see in time)...lol.

Mmm...Goodnight, Moon...Goodnight, noises everywhere...

Monday from Hell: Part 1

OMG!!

Ok, 1st of all, I finally fell asleep around 3-ish am & was up at 7 am.  Normally I sleep til 9 when I'm closing but I'd decided that I wanted to get up early, finish packing & possibly nab the kids before Sheba goes into hiding for the day & get them over to the house & then get to work "whenever".  That way, when I get off tonight, I can just go to my NEW HOME!  :D  It was a good plan.  Umm...uh huh...

So soon after I get up, I realize I have a problem.  I have been using these soft silicone earplugs for about a year now.  No problems whatsoever!  Well, I opened a new pack last night...not really noticing that they are smaller than the ones I've been using.  o.0  You can see this coming, can't you?!  lol  Yeah, well, the one in my left ear is STUCK!  I mean like totally against my eardrum or something!  Poked & prodded with Q-Tips & tweezers.  No luck except to remove itty bitty pieces at a time.  I can't hear.  I mean, I can but not well.  Everything is muffled, etc.  So I'm still digging at this thing at 8:25 when I look at my phone & notice I have voicemail & texts. Cindy has been in an accident on her way to the store...can I open?!  CRAP!  So I drop everything & hurriedly get dressed & get out the door.  But just before I leave, I have to pee & GUESS WHAT?!  Yes...Nixon has come to visit!  Are you kidding me?!  A couple weeks EARLY...AND my stuff is at the house!!  ARGH!!!  Luckily, I had something in my purse!  Sheesh!

I get to the store at 10 minutes til 9 & get open on time.  Claire goes to pick up Cindy & they get there a little after 10.  Cindy is ok...her car, however, is NOT!  lol  Within a few minutes, the Glass Repair guys show up.  A few weeks ago when we had that nasty little storm, it did some damage to our big windows so they've now come to fix them.  We now have this big gaping hole in the side of our building, about 6 sweaty guys making hellacious noises with drills & saws, etc, the bookcases that were in front of the main window is now in the middle of the aisle so nobody can really get in our door too easily.  Just...UGH!!!  Got our order placed finally...amongst all the noise & upheaval.  Claire & Cindy are freaking out about my ear...Claire goes home to get hydrogen peroxide & tweezers...hoping they can dissolve it or at least loosen it up some to get it out of there.  No luck.  So they make me leave at 1 to go to Urgent Care.  ARGH...I DESPISE DOCTORS.  Go in there.  He's at lunch right now...but nurse doesn't think he'll be able to do anything about it if nobody can even see the damn thing...but regardless, it'll be $75 to see him!  FML!  I left.  lol  I'll use more peroxide today & tomorrow...if I can't get it by then, I'll go back to him.  *sighs*

But right now...I'm gonna pack my clothes & stuff.  At least that much will be done by the time I get back home tonight.  Gotta go back up to the store at 4:30 so Cindy can leave to go to Jackie's (daughter-in-law) birthday party.  *sighs*

What a freaking DAY!!!!  I hope it calms down at this point!  lol  OMG...